So Busy

You know, everyone always seems so busy in their college lives. Between work, school work, classes, etc. No one is ever around…

What am I doing wrong? I go to class/work for 9 hours a day, 8-5. Then I come home and I sit around all night long.

What am I doing wrong? Because everyone else always seems so busy. So busy doing something… What are all you people doing out there? Would someone please fill me in.

Because I’m sick of sitting on my couch watching tv. Hating myself because I have no friends.

Someone come save me, before I just give up totally.

Grrr. Virii

Ok, so someone who has my e-mail address on their computer somewhere has a fucking VIRUS! And it’s VERY annoying because I get between 50-60 e-mails AN HOUR from them.

I get the most from the following hosts:
South Western Bell
Comcast
Bell South
Charter

It’s just VERY annoying, and a lot of the people are from off shore too. Grrr. I hate the internet. I have a filter set up now, but it’s still annoying.

So PLEASE, if you run windows make sure you aren’t infected with the ‘Swen’ virus. Go here to read about it.

In other news, I spent last night watching TV, and doing nothing. Called Andrew to say night and we ended up talking for like a half hour, very interesting. Though also I was a bit semi-annoyed by the convo.

I’m over it now. Though there’s someone out there that has a HUGE crush on him. I’m a bit threatened. Though I know I shouldn’t be.

Reading old journal entried and they make me sad.

Working today, very annoying. I hate Ron, he’s so stupid, and VERY bitchy. Grrr at him.

Class this afternoon, test tomorrow. Test Thursday. Career Fair on Wed. Scary shit going on.

I hope I get a job!!

Laters.

Pictures, Why am I so fat?

So what have I done this weekend?

Mostly nothing. Besides working on a garage, going out with Beak and leper boy, staying up tell 3 in the morning talking to crazies, and now watching TV. All very strange.

So yeah, Friday I was going to go downtown, but I didn’t really feel like it by that time, so I just went home and sat around and did nothing. I read some of “White Collar” which is a really good book. Though very scary. I think I’m going to go with a scared theme for my paper. It seems like that should be good to do.

Got up REALLY early saturday morning and helped my dad with the garage. I was climbing all over, in the rafters and it was scary! I thought like I was going to fall and die. But I didn’t obviously.

I broke from there about 11:30, very annoyed because mother didn’t reimburse me for the books that I had to get for class.

Went to wal-mart to get food. I’m going to make Chicken Chow Mein this week. Ran into Julian there and we talked for a while. But I was rushed to get back to Ames to meet up with Beak and leper boy.

Got back and about 5 minutes after I got here, they got here. We headed out to lunch at Hickory Park and then off to Reiman Gardens. It was very annoying there with all the breeder couples being all cute and shit. I wanted to punch them all. It was also very sad because it was the first time I’ve been there without Andrew. 🙁

Also ran into Forrest there and he had just gotten engaged. I congratulated them, but it upset me as well. Stupid breeders. 🙁

After that we drove around campus and walked all over. Then went to Family Video and I got a movie to watch later.

Came home and they broke. I called Andrew and we talked for a short bit, then I went to the rec. Did 20 minutes on the bike, then ran 2 laps, then worked my abs/chest.

Caught the 8:30 bus home and was back about 9ish. Got online and fixed my computer. It’s being very annoying around here lately though. They changed the internet and things just AREN’T working at all. I’m lucky that I’m online now!

About midnight or so I started watching One Hour Photo, which is a REALLY creepy movie. Called Andrew after that was over, and talked for a couple minutes. Then went to go to bed. But for some reason I just had to get online. Bad Idea.

Ended up talking to a bunch of people tell like 3AM. Though two of the convos very much so amused me and made me feel good. The third one just scared the shit out of me, creepy little 16 year olds. I saved the first two, but have lost the last one. 🙁

Finally got to bed about 3:30 or so. Woke up at 7 or 8 to the rain, and drifted in and out of sleep tell about 11 when I got up.

Haven’t done ANYTHING today, except for sitting around and watching TV. I made some chicken noodle soup.

I’m still in my Pj’s.

The last week or so, I’ve been VERY VERY horny. And not just horny, as in lets jack it horny…. Cause I’ve done that like A LOT more then I normally do. I’m horny for cuddling and etc. TMI, I’m sure. whatever.

Anyways, Andrew should be calling here soon so that we can have our weekly couple hour talk. I’m looking forward to that. 🙂

Laters.

Funny Convo #2

BlackC 2004 (2:14:08 AM): So did that condom come in handy?
BlackC 2004 (2:14:10 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:15:02 AM): lol nah i need a bf
BlackC 2004 (2:15:10 AM): lol… Join the club.
Wellington1800 (2:15:27 AM): so lets go out
BlackC 2004 (2:15:31 AM): But at least you were prepared.
Wellington1800 (2:15:39 AM): 🙂
BlackC 2004 (2:15:43 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:16:04 AM): 😎
BlackC 2004 (2:16:39 AM): Anyways, I’ve got to hit the bed… I’m tired.. ::yawns:: Though I’m scared to go to bed now. I just watched the creepiest movie every!
BlackC 2004 (2:16:41 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:17:33 AM): so come down here and ull be safe
BlackC 2004 (2:18:00 AM): lol. That’s a long drive! It’d be like 3! I think I can handle it.. I’ll just have to cuddle with my teddy bear. 🙁
BlackC 2004 (2:18:12 AM): But have a goodnight.. Perhaps you can still find a use for that condom. 😛
BlackC 2004 (2:19:20 AM): Perhaps if I had an invite ealier, you could have comforted me through the movie… I was so scared!
BlackC 2004 (2:19:28 AM): But, really I have to go. I’m just talking to myself now.
BlackC 2004 (2:19:30 AM): Laters!
Wellington1800 (2:19:36 AM): wait
BlackC 2004 (2:19:39 AM): ??
Wellington1800 (2:19:39 AM): talk to me
BlackC 2004 (2:19:43 AM): Wha?
Wellington1800 (2:19:57 AM): i mean granted
Wellington1800 (2:20:16 AM): ur still somewaht in love with ur man but still talk to me
Wellington1800 (2:20:28 AM): plze.?:-)
BlackC 2004 (2:20:39 AM): I have no problems with talking.
Wellington1800 (2:20:54 AM): so?
BlackC 2004 (2:21:30 AM): so???
Wellington1800 (2:21:35 AM): lets tal then
BlackC 2004 (2:21:41 AM): k, bout what?
Wellington1800 (2:21:58 AM): bout u
Wellington1800 (2:22:00 AM): 🙂
BlackC 2004 (2:22:20 AM): What about me?
BlackC 2004 (2:22:28 AM): I’m scared! What more do you need to know?
BlackC 2004 (2:22:29 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:23:01 AM): tell me EXPLICILTLY about u without being scared
Wellington1800 (2:23:13 AM): 😎
Wellington1800 (2:23:37 AM): i mean im listening to Pacelbels Canon in D
Wellington1800 (2:23:55 AM): how
Wellington1800 (2:23:55 AM): “bad” can i be?
BlackC 2004 (2:24:03 AM): Hmmm? ::is confused::
Wellington1800 (2:24:33 AM): okay tell me bout u
BlackC 2004 (2:24:53 AM): What about me?
Wellington1800 (2:25:01 AM): i mean i know ur taken but i still wanna know bout u
Wellington1800 (2:25:07 AM): stuff u havent said
BlackC 2004 (2:25:41 AM): Ummm, well ask a question, and I shall answer.
Wellington1800 (2:25:50 AM): would u let world peace begin with u???
BlackC 2004 (2:25:53 AM): I can’t just think of things I haven’t said off the top of my head!
BlackC 2004 (2:26:09 AM): And I didn’t mean for that to ryhme.
BlackC 2004 (2:26:24 AM): I suppose, but I don’t see how world peace would START with me persay.
BlackC 2004 (2:26:25 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:26:55 AM): are u a follower or a leader?
BlackC 2004 (2:27:14 AM): It all depends on the situation.
BlackC 2004 (2:27:40 AM): And how comfortable I am in it!
Wellington1800 (2:29:23 AM): and how are u at starting new things?
Wellington1800 (2:29:25 AM): ??
BlackC 2004 (2:29:34 AM): I dunno, not very good I should say.
Wellington1800 (2:30:09 AM): now
Wellington1800 (2:30:18 AM): whys that?
BlackC 2004 (2:30:33 AM): I’m shy, I don’t start things well. :-[
BlackC 2004 (2:30:34 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:30:55 AM): im shy and very formal too …so what?
BlackC 2004 (2:31:25 AM): And unless I feel very comfortable doing something, it takes a lot of persuasion to get me to do things, or alcohol too, that works.
BlackC 2004 (2:31:28 AM): roflol.
Wellington1800 (2:31:42 AM): hey le me tell u this okay?
BlackC 2004 (2:31:50 AM): k?
Wellington1800 (2:33:01 AM): i saw ur pic and immediately i was drawn to its cuteness and ever si ce i saw it no matter the cost id still think u were attractive in one 20 yr old to another
BlackC 2004 (2:33:35 AM): Awww, thanks! :-[:-D
Wellington1800 (2:33:36 AM): whatever ur frank as in physical or emotional response
BlackC 2004 (2:34:04 AM): I do think that you’re cute as well! Seriously.
Wellington1800 (2:34:08 AM): its okay ive been turned down soo much before so its okay
Wellington1800 (2:34:19 AM): awwww
Wellington1800 (2:34:56 AM): i mean most guys call me mushy when i want to take them to my house for dinner lit by candle and music by Celine Dion
BlackC 2004 (2:35:10 AM): Awww, that’s cute!
Wellington1800 (2:35:20 AM): and dinner to my lovely choosing
Wellington1800 (2:35:32 AM): and then most have and will leave laughing
Wellington1800 (2:35:47 AM): making me soo very cynical
BlackC 2004 (2:36:13 AM): Why would they leave laughing? I always enjoy candle light dinners, they’re so relaxing and nice.
BlackC 2004 (2:36:23 AM): Though I like the cranberries as a back sound for me!
BlackC 2004 (2:36:23 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:36:35 AM): so while im left in the breexe wit my ass in the rain
Wellington1800 (2:37:13 AM): everyone laughs at me
Wellington1800 (2:37:19 AM): so i say screw em
BlackC 2004 (2:37:19 AM): Well they shouldn’t.
BlackC 2004 (2:37:38 AM): That’s what most of DM is though.
Wellington1800 (2:38:50 AM): so i wonder when people are gonna get over that which they cannot have
Wellington1800 (2:39:09 AM): but still have whats avail in front of them and willin in front of them
BlackC 2004 (2:39:34 AM): That’s too philosophical at this time of the night.
Wellington1800 (2:39:44 AM): nah
Wellington1800 (2:39:47 AM): ur educated
Wellington1800 (2:39:51 AM): but okay
BlackC 2004 (2:40:25 AM): Sorry, I’m very tired… The brains not thinking.
BlackC 2004 (2:40:31 AM): Do explain what you’re attempting to say?
BlackC 2004 (2:40:44 AM): In laymans tearms?
Wellington1800 (2:40:49 AM): nah its too early
Wellington1800 (2:40:58 AM): unless u want me to say something
Wellington1800 (2:41:06 AM): and have somethings be strained
Wellington1800 (2:41:33 AM): “Heart of a Champion” good song
BlackC 2004 (2:41:50 AM): ::scratches head:: I’m so confused!
Wellington1800 (2:42:12 AM): im not surprised…
Wellington1800 (2:42:22 AM): laughs
Wellington1800 (2:43:38 AM): in somesort of otherwords(not my own but still) im envious of the reakastionshio u jave with ur man
BlackC 2004 (2:43:39 AM): Do explain? I’m so confused… You’ll have me up trying to decipher your crazy talk all night!
BlackC 2004 (2:43:48 AM): Ahhh, Isee.
BlackC 2004 (2:44:01 AM): I’m sorry!
Wellington1800 (2:44:10 AM): and i wish iwas ur man
Wellington1800 (2:44:11 AM): ther
Wellington1800 (2:44:13 AM): i said it
Wellington1800 (2:44:22 AM): heres wher u say im sooo offended
Wellington1800 (2:44:31 AM): or sooo grossed out
BlackC 2004 (2:44:45 AM): Ahhh, well you know what I always tell people is that I had to wait FOREVER before I even had my first bf, so it just takes time to find that right guy!
Wellington1800 (2:44:48 AM): because im not blonde haired
Wellington1800 (2:44:50 AM): blue eyed
BlackC 2004 (2:45:02 AM): I’m not offened or grossed out. I think it’s cute.
Wellington1800 (2:45:36 AM): u dont wanna know what im gonna do
BlackC 2004 (2:45:52 AM): What… What are you gonna do?
Wellington1800 (2:45:59 AM): and believe me ITS NOT U
Wellington1800 (2:46:08 AM): oh nothing
BlackC 2004 (2:46:17 AM): What, you can’t tempt me like that!!
Wellington1800 (2:46:22 AM): not that anyone cares
Wellington1800 (2:46:42 AM): no one ever has cared
BlackC 2004 (2:46:43 AM): I’m sure everyone cares…
Wellington1800 (2:46:52 AM): so dont if u dont want to
Wellington1800 (2:46:58 AM): no one does
BlackC 2004 (2:46:59 AM): I bet there are people that care.
Wellington1800 (2:47:05 AM): according to my powerful mother
BlackC 2004 (2:47:35 AM): You’re mother said that no one cares?
Wellington1800 (2:48:21 AM): yea
BlackC 2004 (2:48:53 AM): Well, no offense to her, but what does she know? I bet there are people out there that would care.
BlackC 2004 (2:48:57 AM): You have friends, no?
Wellington1800 (2:49:25 AM): in reality no
BlackC 2004 (2:50:11 AM): Oh, sure you do!
BlackC 2004 (2:50:28 AM): Who doesn’t have friends… Even I have friends, though none of them like haning out with me. 🙁
Wellington1800 (2:51:32 AM): no
Wellington1800 (2:51:36 AM): my mom just called
Wellington1800 (2:51:53 AM): and said the worst thing i could have done besides die was being gat
Wellington1800 (2:51:56 AM): gay
Wellington1800 (2:52:01 AM): im crying
BlackC 2004 (2:52:01 AM): At this hour? I think you’re halucanating (I know, I’m not an enligh major).
BlackC 2004 (2:52:15 AM): Well I’m sorry. How bout a hug??? ::hugs::
Wellington1800 (2:53:01 AM): yea whatever
BlackC 2004 (2:53:17 AM): Oh, do stop. Life is good, or it shall be.
Wellington1800 (2:53:39 AM): no one cares
Wellington1800 (2:53:42 AM): no one is ther
Wellington1800 (2:53:51 AM): no one
Wellington1800 (2:53:56 AM): ur wanting ur bf
BlackC 2004 (2:53:59 AM): Sure they do! I care.
Wellington1800 (2:54:01 AM): whic h is cool
Wellington1800 (2:54:08 AM): and they want their s
Wellington1800 (2:54:21 AM): and im here without an umbrella in this rain of shit
BlackC 2004 (2:54:48 AM): Oh, I do think it’s not as bad as you’re making it out to be… Perhaps you’ve been drinking a bit too much tonight?
Wellington1800 (2:55:55 AM): dude
Wellington1800 (2:56:00 AM): u have no idea
BlackC 2004 (2:56:08 AM): Well then enlighten me!
Wellington1800 (2:56:10 AM): how deep it goes
BlackC 2004 (3:00:39 AM): Well if you’re not going to enlighten me… I’m going to hit the sack.
BlackC 2004 (3:00:49 AM): Nighties. Hope thinkgs look up tomorrow for you!
Wellington1800 (3:01:15 AM): yea
Wellington1800 (3:01:17 AM): whatever
BlackC 2004 (3:01:26 AM): Do be better!
BlackC 2004 (3:01:29 AM): Nights
Wellington1800 (3:01:31 AM): i wont be
Wellington1800 (3:01:34 AM): u will be

Auto response from Wellington1800 (3:01:34 AM): I am away from my computer right now.

Wellington1800 (3:01:37 AM): but whatever
BlackC 2004 (3:01:38 AM): Sure you will!
Wellington1800 (3:01:47 AM): yea extactly
Wellington1800 (3:01:50 AM): sure
BlackC 2004 (3:01:59 AM): I’m just going down…. Withe very day that passes. I’m sure you can come up!
BlackC 2004 (3:02:09 AM): We’ll meet somewhere in the middle! 😛
BlackC 2004 (3:02:11 AM): Night!
Wellington1800 (3:13:04 AM): always…that is if u evermeet me

Auto response from Wellington1800 (3:13:04 AM): I am away from my computer right now.

Wellington1800 (3:26:21 AM): ok well take care i gfuess
Wellington1800 (3:26:34 AM): that is if u do
Wellington1800 (3:27:07 AM): u prolly think im a load of baggage
Wellington1800 (3:27:07 AM): but whatever

Funny Convo #1

TSwanie (2:37:24 AM): hey
BlackC 2004 (2:37:27 AM): Hola.
BlackC 2004 (2:37:30 AM): Como Estas?
TSwanie (2:37:33 AM): hehe
TSwanie (2:37:38 AM): ca va bien
TSwanie (2:37:47 AM): if i ask nicely will you do something
BlackC 2004 (2:37:49 AM): Ahhh, good.
BlackC 2004 (2:37:53 AM): something?
TSwanie (2:38:00 AM): yeah
BlackC 2004 (2:38:14 AM): It all depends on what something is, especially at this hour. I’m nearly ready for bed.
BlackC 2004 (2:38:26 AM): Well, actually I’ve been ready for bed. But someone else won’t let me leave!
BlackC 2004 (2:38:33 AM): They keep babbling my ear off!
BlackC 2004 (2:38:34 AM): lol
TSwanie (2:38:36 AM): who?
BlackC 2004 (2:38:42 AM): Some random.
BlackC 2004 (2:38:42 AM): lol
TSwanie (2:38:48 AM): oh
TSwanie (2:38:51 AM): not me?
BlackC 2004 (2:39:02 AM): You just started talking, did you not?
TSwanie (2:39:08 AM): yeah
TSwanie (2:39:09 AM): hehe
BlackC 2004 (2:39:13 AM): lol
TSwanie (2:39:13 AM): so.. anyway
BlackC 2004 (2:39:16 AM): Yes?
TSwanie (2:39:25 AM): come cuddle w/ me tonight
BlackC 2004 (2:40:06 AM): I’d love to, as I just watched a very scary movie… But as I said, I’m ready for beddy by. 🙁
TSwanie (2:41:06 AM): so?
TSwanie (2:41:18 AM): come over anyway
TSwanie (2:41:23 AM): think about it
TSwanie (2:41:27 AM): cuddling up with moi
TSwanie (2:41:28 AM): all night
BlackC 2004 (2:41:33 AM): lol, so? You also ditched me for dinner. :'( You have to make that up to me first. 😛
TSwanie (2:41:44 AM): i’m trying too
TSwanie (2:41:45 AM): right now
TSwanie (2:41:49 AM): but your dissing me
BlackC 2004 (2:42:02 AM): lol, no no.. You have to go to dinner to make up dinner! Silly.
TSwanie (2:42:18 AM): oh all right
TSwanie (2:42:25 AM): i was gonna cuddle with you.. etc
TSwanie (2:42:27 AM): and make it up
TSwanie (2:42:31 AM): but nooooooo
BlackC 2004 (2:42:50 AM): lol, well you have to make up for not calling me first!
BlackC 2004 (2:42:58 AM): I don’t forgive easily 😛
TSwanie (2:43:09 AM): i can call you real quick
TSwanie (2:43:11 AM): if you want
BlackC 2004 (2:43:25 AM): But where to go to dinner? Everything’s closed.. And I’m neked, ready for bed.
BlackC 2004 (2:43:26 AM): lol
TSwanie (2:43:38 AM): well we won’t be able to do din din
TSwanie (2:43:42 AM): but after cuddling all night
TSwanie (2:43:47 AM): then it’d be brunch time
TSwanie (2:43:48 AM): ya know
TSwanie (2:43:50 AM): yummy
BlackC 2004 (2:43:56 AM): lol
TSwanie (2:44:17 AM): food food after cuddle time
TSwanie (2:44:20 AM): i know you want too
TSwanie (2:44:23 AM): hmm
TSwanie (2:44:24 AM): 🙂
BlackC 2004 (2:45:10 AM): lol.
BlackC 2004 (2:45:24 AM): It is tempting. But you’ve got to make up that dinner first.
TSwanie (2:45:32 AM): how bout after?
BlackC 2004 (2:45:33 AM): See what you’re missing, if only you had called. 😛
TSwanie (2:45:49 AM): i know
TSwanie (2:45:50 AM): i know
TSwanie (2:45:53 AM): it was a bad bad day
TSwanie (2:45:55 AM): bad….
TSwanie (2:46:04 AM): so you should come and help ease it over
BlackC 2004 (2:46:28 AM): You’re telling me… it was a bad bad day for me as well.
BlackC 2004 (2:46:33 AM): Oh, I’m sure you’re over it by now!@
TSwanie (2:46:34 AM): i know
TSwanie (2:46:44 AM): well you must move on
TSwanie (2:46:45 AM): ya know
TSwanie (2:46:55 AM): so we can deal with it together as we cuddle up
BlackC 2004 (2:47:20 AM): lol. I’ll have to pass this offer up. But an offer for dinner, now that I can’t pass up.
TSwanie (2:47:38 AM): i think you should do both
TSwanie (2:47:39 AM): 🙂
TSwanie (2:47:45 AM): for me
BlackC 2004 (2:47:52 AM): lol. Yes, well you’re probaby very tired and don’t know what you’re saying.
BlackC 2004 (2:48:00 AM): I know that I am… Tired that is! 😛
TSwanie (2:48:20 AM): i might be tired.. but to be cuddled up.. i know i’d like that
BlackC 2004 (2:49:10 AM): lol, well yes. I guess that is an obvious liking.
TSwanie (2:49:24 AM): yees
TSwanie (2:49:26 AM): so you should
BlackC 2004 (2:50:06 AM): Eh, it just seems to much work. I’d have to shave, and dress and drive, and find the place, and brush my teeth, and all that. And then there’s the fact that you ditched me, which you have to make up first! 😛
BlackC 2004 (2:50:06 AM): lol
TSwanie (2:52:05 AM): awh
BlackC 2004 (2:55:06 AM): lol.
BlackC 2004 (2:59:40 AM): Anyways, I think crazy is done talking to me… So I should be hitting the bed.
BlackC 2004 (2:59:50 AM): Nighties! Good luck on finding someone to cuddle with! 😛
TSwanie (3:00:00 AM): yeah no luck since you said no
TSwanie (3:00:02 AM): bye bye
BlackC 2004 (3:00:06 AM): lol, night!