Category: My Life

Hmm. It’s been a busy busy couple of days….

So this past weekend we went up to Robbers Roost. Robert Jolly was supposed to join us, the guy that had cancelled on me the day of our date that I had tickets too… Surprise! He cancelled on me again. Fucker. THEN he deleted me from facebook… WTF!

I picked up Leigh and this guy Jerel. We drove up there around noon got there by 3 and set stuff up. It was already cold and windy when we got there…. It was gonna get colder and windier.

Everyone was late… Like 2 hours late so we went into town and bought some more wood then back out to wait for everyone. They showed up. Good times, climbed, ate dinner, drank. Had a great time. This guy Jerel was a mess. Drank way to much. Disappeared into no where, passed out in the middle of the desert, etc. And really gay.

Went to bed around midnight. Didn’t sleep worth shit because the wind was blowing 70mph+ and it was raining, etc. Eventually woke up around 6, went out to tear down and the snow line was maybe 100yards away! It was so beautiful. I wish I had had my real camera!

So the drive back was a mess. Leigh fucking SMOKED in my truck after I asked him not too. Then we get to Mojave and he disappears. Come to find out he went to Subway to buy himself breakfast. Excuse me. You’ve got 3 other people who are also fucking hungry and you just run off, holding us all up to go get yourself food and not ask if anyone else wanted food/etc? So I yelled at him and apparently he was all pissed at me after that. Whatever fucking selfish.

Got home and unpacked (threw everything into my living room) and packed real quick for napa. Took a nap then went to the airport.

Had a great evening out with Leo and Tim, back to hotel. Drove to napa with Sylvia. Great times. Had an amazing trip. WEnt to Paloma which was so much fun. The lady was just so informative and cool. It was just Syl and I with a private tasting! I really wish that I had a bf there with me to cuddle and wine taste with.

Got home late yesterday. Called David. Chatted for an hour. Then he went to Jesse’s house at 10:30pm and didn’t get home till after midnight. WTF. Ugh there’s gotta be something more then just friends going on there that he’s not telling me about.

Syl, Leo and I discussed. I need to move on. I’ve said it before. But I really need too. I’m gonna try and not talk to him for a while.

I’m going to Austin to climb for my Birthday. He’ll probably be there….

I wish my dreams I have at night would at least be half true.

Lately I’ve been dreaming about David a lot. Ugh. Last night I had this dream that he was back here in LA. He was staying at my house for a while this time because he came to see the city instead of just a random climbing trip.

It was his last day. I was sitting at my desk in the morning drinking coffee and doing some work. He came out of the bed room. Came up behind me, asked me what I was doing and then gave me the biggest kiss ever on my neck.

In my dream, it was our first kiss ever. It was amazing..

Now if only that could even be half true IRL!

Davey and I have still been chatting a lot. Not as much as we had in the past. It’s sad.

My life has been pretty boring lately. I haven’t really been up to much other then the typical.

Dad was here two weekends ago. We worked on the Bronco. It was actually easier then I thought it’d be. We got the dash painted and all done up nice looking. Now I just can’t wait to get the fucking carpet replaced and some sound padding put in. Then the thing will finally be up to about where I was EXPECTING it to be when I got it back.

Speaking of which. Mother went and scheduled that side of the family for Christmas Day! Ugh. I am so not looking forward to that at all. I hope that certain person and his bitchy ass wife don’t show up.

Last week was pretty boring after that. Dad was here for a few more days. Dinner with Sirin, improv show, etc. It was fun but also AWK like when he brought up with leigh AND sirin that he quit drinking on my 16th birthday. Random.

Friday headed up to Bishop with EC, Brian and Daniel. Good drive up. Brian was late so we got stuck in some bad traffic. Annoying. Got up there and we all decided on a hotel. Probably a good idea.

Climbing in the middle gorge Saturday which was of course amazing. Did some stuff on the Warm up wall and China wall again. Lots of fun. Weather was perfect!

Left there and went to the hot springs, which were actually just warm. So we didn’t spend much time there and went to dinner at Whiskey Creek. Food was ok, company was great. Mikey joined us there, as did NIck and a bunch of straight boys. I didn’t really like the straight boys. There was this one asian guy that was really annoying. He was more whiney then most gays I go out on dates with!

Sunday we got up and went bouldering at the Buttermilks. I took them all to most of my favorite places. Hero, Iron Man, Buttermilk Stem, Cave Problem, etc. I actually completed Stem which was a first for me and was able to re-complete Hero which is an improvement since last time I couldn’t.

Surprisingly my shoulder didn’t hurt near as bad as I thought it would so that’s good!

So drove home after that we made it back in really good time. The bronco drove very nicely and was doing a good 80+ almost all the way back!

Yesterday at work was a total downer day. I felt like shit all day long. It was horrible. I went home and was just going to spend the night being lonely at home. But this guy had been texting me all day. He’s the manager at the starbucks right next to me. We were going to go on a date last week. But I got REALLY annoyed with him just setting the date up. So I decided to just ignore him. Well he texted me asking for a second chance and blah blah blah he was really stressed out and what not. So I decided to give it to him. I should have stuck with my guns and said NO!

He was fucking ANNOYING in person too. Whiney little gay bitch. And the thing that SUCKS is that he’s fucking being transfered to the starbucks that I go to all the time! UGH!

We watched A very long engagement. It was an amazing movie.

Anyways. I couldn’t wait for that movie to get over to kick his ass out! Ugh. I blocked him on Grindr while he was still at my house! LOL.

So yeah. That’s been that. I’m out.

I had big plans for this weekend. It should have been packed with fun and excitement.

However, it was mostly a big waste.

Friday was great. I’ve been talking to this guy Steve for like 9 months online. He moved here from San Diego to finish his masters. Super cute, super funny, does improv and what not. Good times. We met up and had dinner at Wood Spoon then went to Golden Gopher and Seven Grand. It was a lot of fun to hang out with him finally! I hope we hang out again.

Got home around midnight and crashed in bed. Woke up Saturday and drove out to Leigh’s place to go to the u-pick-parts place.

That was basically a total waste. I needed a huge list of things. Stuff we were able to find last time we were there. This time we could only find ONE thing on the whole list! Ugh. Ate lunch with him and then headed over to Sylvia’s house. We watched the Iowa game. Dan gets crazy! This guy that I went to HS showed up. So random.

Drove home from that and laid down for a nap. Woke up at midnight. Totally missing Sirin’s party! Sad

Woke up Sunday and was going to work on the truck and stuff but just didn’t feel like it so I spent the day researching stuff and looking for ways to make it quieter, paint the dash, etc.

I had a date that night. I was really looking forward to it. He cancelled on me at 3pm. I was so fucking annoyed. So I lost $20 in tickets for that. Ugh. Stupid boys.

My dad is in town this weekend. He’s going to help me with the truck and then go quad riding. Should be interesting times.