may 21, #2 [foreigner, "hot blooded"] hmm, that songs kinda an
odd thing to come up just as i was starting this, lol. i just got done talking
to this really cool guy (hope he doesn’t
mind his pic being there, lol, if he does just talk to me, i’ll take it down.)
that’s from isu, to bad he’s in nm for the summer, but he’s pretty cool. ya
know it’s kinda weird how people just relaly open up to each other when they
talk on here. sometimes i talk to people about things that i would never talk
to them about in person. lol. i also sent my couisn a big old long e-mail
about what’s going on in my life, here it is, cause it’s just easier to copy
and paste then to summerize: ahhhhhhhh, i just want to
shoot my parents right now. i really do. they are driving me crazy, today
we got the phone bill from my dorm room. it was $85. my dad’s all pissed off
about it and he says that he told me not to talk so long when he got the $40
bill. but he never said anything about it. he’s now saying that i have to
pay this bill, which i think is unfair cause, 1) they never gave me any limits
to the phone bills, 2) they said they would pay the phone bills. i mean comon,
i DON’T have that kind of money, right now i have like 20 in my account, they
are being such assholes. they really are, ever since i got home all he’s done
is yell at me about shit, little fucking things too. i’m getting really sick
of it. i mean i worked my ass off durning high school, by the time i was andy’s
age i was working 30 hours a week, and how many hours is andy working? none.
how much does he get to go out? when ever he wants. it’s realy damn unfair.
i had to pay for like everything when i was in hs and they just give him what
ever he wants. and you know when they moved me out of my room and let him
in it, that just really pissed me off. i don’t care if i’m not home anymore,
it’s still _MY_ room. they lost alot of my stuff when they moved it too. plus
they’ve been yelling at me lately for going into andys room and taking my
stuff back, but how often do they yell at him for stealing it from me? NEVER.
one of these days i’m just going to fucking blow and start screaming at them.
damnit. i really am. or i might just call you from philly sometime. i’ve been
thinking about telling my mom about me. i mean i think that would take alot
of the tension out of here. i really do. but i mean, if they are going to
be such assholes about a damn phone bill what are they going to do if i tell
them it’s my bf that i’ve been calling? i can’t stand to live in this house
much longer. i really can’t. it’s just ripping me apart from the inside and
now getting ready to leave for work is just piling more shit on top of it.
and ya know they are just such damn pigs, it really annoys me. and my brother,
everything with him is just perfect. but with me. grr. like you know, if he
gets a damn D it’s “GOOD job andy” and shit like that, but we got my final
grades today from DSU, i got all B’s and do yohink they even said anything
to me about them, nope, not a damn word. not a goddamn fucking word. that
really pisses me off. and also like my b-day, what did they do for that? they
sent me a bunch of crap, it was all crap. they don’t give a fuck, they really
don’t. i’m surpriced they’re still paying for college, they haven’t found
a way to cut me out of that yet. another thing, i went and got contacts, they
cost about the same as a piar of glasses, cause they were on sale, but do
you think they’ll reimburse me for it? nope. cause they’re contacts, not glasses?what’s teh difference? i don’t really know. they bought andy new glasses,
my dad got new glasses, but i can’t get new contacts? hmm, it appears not.
so now i have to find a way to pay for those too. i hvae no money left, none
at all. they were supposed to have paid for a bunch of shit that i’m now having
to pay, so i’m left with nothing to spend. i’m sure they’ll find some way
for me to have to spend all my money i make at camp too, they’ll probobly
tell me that i have to pay for my apartment or something. i dunno. it’s really
pissing me off. damnit. ok i guess i’ve bitched enough, i’ll talk to you laters.
and here’s her respnce, again it’s easier to copy and paste then it
is to summerize:So it’s not a sunshiny day then? You can
call anytime-call collect if you need to-I have no life-I’m always home. You
can also come out here anytime-you don’t have to plan it out for weeks-just
call and say I’m on the way. I know that won’t be feasible 99% of the time
but if it ever is you’re always welcome. Are you coming back this weekend
for GG’s party? Hope so. It’s hard enough living with your parents but after
having 9 months away from them probably makes it even harder. When I came
back from boot camp my mom and I fought all the time. She still wanted to
treat me like I was in HS and I didn’t want anything to do with it. My mom
doesn’t even reach near the irritation factor your PU’s do though so I can
only imagine. I don’t know what it is with your parents and your brother but
it’s really bizarre-even grandma’s said stuff about it before and you know
how clueless she is! Why did they have to move your room-it’s not like your
room is obscenely bigger or different or anything. Andy just has to have everything-God
forbid he doesn’t get his way. The twisted thing is he’s the one who needs
to be yelled at-I mean come on have they looked at him lately-he acts like
he’s 8. Ok and about college-I have 3rd hand gossip that my mom heard from
grandma-so I’m repeating it but I don’t know how warped it’s gotten in the
process. My mom said grandma mentioned talking to your dad and him saying
you might have to pay for part of your college b/c they couldn’t afford it.
(again-this is second hand gossip) But if it’s true that’s just crap-I mean
come on-with as much money as your parents make if they haven’t been saving
for your education they’re just fucking stupid (your parents compel me to
use that word) Andy needs a reality check-I’ve never known anyone so materialistic
in my life, it’s insane. My mother would have killed me if I’d acted like
that. Your PU’s would have killed you for acting like that-yet he gets away
with it! GRRRR! I don’t want to sound like a pep talk here b/c those are just
damned annoying, but hang in there man. Soon you won’t have to be around them
night and day. (of course you get to spend the whole summer in the closet
so it’s a small consolation but go with it, cling to the hope) I know that
doesn’t get you through right now though. Your parents are probably sitting
around hoping maybe you just forgot about that little gay thing. That would
be like them, state of denial. Christopher can’t be gay-then our family won’t
be perfect. They missed the All-American family mark when Andy came out a
boy so that’s shot anyway. They are giant looooosers. If I didn’t have to
see them all the time I would have told them off years ago. I came really
close at Thanksgiving last year when I got that whole “bad influence” shit
again. It’s amazing especially seeing Andy) that two people that screwed up
ever produced som! eone as normal and sane as you. I thing you were switched
at the hospital and there baby went home with some one else. Nice fantasy
huh?! Don’t kill them between now and the next time we e. Try to have a little
fun! i have such a cool cousin, i wish the rest of the family was like
that. but ya know if my pu’s make me pay for college i’m going to be really
fucking pissed, like she said, with as much as they make if they haven’t been
saving for my college they’re just stupid. and plus it’s thier own damn fault
we didn’t get any financial aide. they didn’t fill out the forms and they
wouldn’t tell me what i needed to know to fill them out myself, so yeah fuck
them. bastards. i really can’t wait for camp toi start, but at the same time,
i don’t want to go.
