Welcome to the world of Ajax! 🙂
I hope you all love the new theme as much as I do. 🙂
There’s some annoying bugs with it yet. Such as the damn Date/Time on Comments don’t work and the damn Time on the posts don’t work. But I can live with those till I have more time.
Up to Santa Monica tomorrow and Pamono tonight. Adios!
Really, what am I doing….
The West Wing is coming to an end, only one more epsiode. They’re closing down all the relationships, creating new ones, all this emotional stuff. And tonight.
Well, it made me start to think. There’s a new guy in town, in case you all haven’t already figured it out, Dustin… How do I handle him?
Ever since Andrew, I’ve taken everything slow, I’ve been defensive in relationships, both with friends and dating, I’ve been cold and bitchy, I’ve been disconnected. Not wanting to expose myself again like that.
Then, the new years. It was time to change all that, time to get out there and find another boy. Enter, Austin. I jumped in with both feet, I jumped in hard. I did things with him that I had never done with anyone else. I exposed myself and I got trashed again.
This time, I wasn’t going to let it get me down. Yes, I was down for a little bit, but it wasn’t going to stop me. I kept going.
Date, after date, after date… All horrible, all stupid, me defensive and bitchy to most of them.
Enter, Dustin. I was excited for that date anyways, he seemed so much better online then all the other boys, a good down to earth working boy. The date, as we all know, went off great. We’ve gotten closer and closer….
But now the time comes, one toe at a time, or both feet? Things have been moving pretty fast already. He’s spent the night a few times, we talk every day. No sex, which is good, that’s moving way to fast.
It seems people always say.. “We’re going to take it slow… ” Etc, etc. But they never seem to actually do it. I’ve said it, and not done it. So what’s the right speed, and how do you know? How do you regulate it, and should you?
There’s so many unknowns in relationships, they are so difficult. I’m excited for this one, even though I do have reservations about his age. We’ll slowly see where things go with this one.
So what am I doing? Why am I thinking about this move to Santa Monica, why did I agree to it? I’ve gained these amazing friends… Pretty much exactly what I’ve wanted. People who do BBQ’s, people who go out, people who will go on bike rides, and I’m sure there’s so much more. So why am I leaving them?
It’s all being really difficult for me right now. Very annoying.
And to top it all off… Austin contacted me today. He ran into the boys on Wed at the Boom, and then again on Fri… Today, I get a txt message. I replied, he replied, I replied… No response. I’m not sure what he wanted.. It’s been over a month since I’ve had any contact with him. So what, and why now?
It’s time for bed, I’ve had a horribly long day.
Haha….
Have I said it before… How much I _LOVE_ Penn & Teller’s Show, Bullshit?!
I just watched the episode on Circumcision…
Seriously, if you’re having a baby boy, you HAVE to watch this show.
Mom & Dad… Thanks for not cutting off my penis! 😀
Adios!
I HATE THEM ALL!
They are so rude, and stupid.
I drove around yesterday for 3 hours, calling every sign I saw that had For Rent… Lying scum is what they all are!
Some of them were like, “We don’t have any more”… Then WHY NOT TAKE DOWN THE DAMN SIGN.
Some of them were just stupid, and had ZERO information about the place! IF YOU want to rent it you have to have SOME INFORMATION.
MOST however, had a cheery little message saying, “If you’re interested in an apartment leave a message and we will call you back”. How many call backs did I get?!
That’s right ZERO!!!!! And most of these there was NO WAY to get a human to start with! God this is so horrible.
Why can’t I just hire someone to go out and pre-screen all these places and then bring me the best of them! I should start a company like that.
I just want someone to drive me around and say, “Here’s the top 5” or something like that!
Ugh.
Well, today isn’t starting off that great. So I get up at 5 this morning and dress and all that, drive my ass up here to SM and get here at 6:10. Ring the door bell, and no one answers. Last time I was here, there was this woman who said, “I’m here at 5:30 every morning, so no worries”. So I ring it again and then again. Nothing… So I walk across the street and get some breakfast and then come back. Ring it again, and then again! STILL NOTHING. So I sit and wait….. 7 rolls around and this woman finially comes and opens the door, she lets me in… We’re walking back and in the SECOND FUCKING office back is this guy just sitting there working… HELLO! He could have heard the damn door bell from where he was at, why didn’t he just fucking come open the damn door. God how annoying.
Last night I went and played tennis with Ryan at 3:30. We played for like an hour, then I came home and ironed my shirts and then fell asleep…. Woke up about 9:10ish and txted Dustin and then crawled in bed and slept till 5 this morning. I did wake up a few time sin there. Ugh.
For some reason I don’t have access to a printer up here.. Very annoying.
Tonight is the BBQ with everyone, that’ll be fun. Hopefully I’ll find some good apartments today as well! Wish me luck everyone.
Adios!