My Life

Just feeling down

I just feel like I’m never going to date again or be happy dating. This past week or so I’ve been super down and like nearly in tears. I just get home from work, lie on the couch, go to bed at like 8pm and sleep.

I am so unhappy with work and just angry all the time. This fucking Marketing Manager woman is always on our case about stuff and is just annoying AF. I got into a little argument with her the other day about domain names. She said “None of the domains are working”. I said, please tell me which ones because the ones I tested ALL WORKED, she send a screen shot of like 10 and said “None of these”. I tested the first 5 and they worked fine. Then she finally told me exactly which TWO. So make up your fucking mind bitch, all of them or only two of them?

I have been on a few dates and just nothing seems exciting. I just feel like I want to not do anything. One guy was a total catfish, his pics were clearly from like 10+ years ago. The next day he texted me and said. “Honestly, I can’t see us moving forward”… I replied back and said “I agree”. He replied and said “omg, awk. I meant “can””. So ever since then things have been super weird, but I’m honestly not really into him anyway.

Had another date with this guy who’s a chef at some Thai place in SF. He is cute and nice but a little too fem for me. He also does drag.

I just want to find a cute asian guy who’s into the dreams/ideas that I have, someone who can share in what I want to do in life.

There’s a laundromat for sale near me. They Net $5k/month currently all brand new machines and they want $250k for it. That seems a bit excessive.

The other day I found this old article from our HomoClimbtastic Labor day west coast trip. Really brought back fun memories and times with Davey. I texted him and we chatted a little bit but he didn’t seem that interested in chatting after all these years.

That’s something else I’ve been noticing more lately and just giving up on guys faster. I don’t know if it’s the right thing to do really. For instance there’s this guy I matched with on Tinder. The past week of messages include:
HIM: How as your weekend.
Me: It was great, did some yard work, walked the dog and hung out with some friends. How about you?
HIM: Good, just relaxing. Have a good week ahead.
Me (Tuesday): I’m glad it’s a short week, do you have anything going on this week?
HIM (Friday): I’m in NYC.
Me (Sunday): How was NYC? What did you do there? When are you back?
HIM: Ate Mostly.

So clearly this guy is not interested, right? Like why waste my time trying to carry on the conversation. Why are these people even on here. If you’re not interested, just say so.

Parents arrive on Friday and we have a lot of work to do. I spent $4500 on the deck stuff. $2200 so far on the gravel for the front yard. This yard project is going to end up being like $15,000.

This guy I used to climb with got married last weekend. Makes me sad. What am I doing wrong in life. :'(

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