Where to start since my last post. I really need to get back into doing this on a more regular basis. But my days are all basically the same. Work, eat, talk to calvin and sleep.
Over the holiday break I met up with my old friend David. I met him years ago at his dad’s auto repair shop. We’ve only hung out once or twice since then, but on one of the times he made me cookies. So finally this time I repaid him and made him some cookies.
We ended up hanging out a lot this break, much to the annoyance of Calvin. But things were good. He was obviously interested in trying something more. At one point he tried to kiss me. I rejected him. It’s good to know that so many people think I’m sexy. Good for the self image. But I still feel down about my looks right now.
I can’t recall everything we did. We went to see a movie, went climbing twice, ate in Alhambra at some Shabu Shabu place (Delcious!). Just hung out and chatted.
Work threw a wrench in all my plans. They pushed my project back a month, much to be expected which releived a lot of the stress. At the same time it fucked things up because now I have to wait till late Feb to actually spend a whole week with Calvin! The project though I really am glad that we pushed it back. Everyone is getting very comfortable with it, things are working great and people are actually saying GOOD things about the changes!
Christmas sucked. I spent the weekend home alone. I did a bike ride each day which felt great to get back out there. The weather here in LA has just been amazing. But I didn’t get any presents from my parents. I’m not sure what to say to them about that. I feel like I should be like, “Ummm, WTF”. But at the same time that’s really selfish of me. I sent them presents though! WTF.
I’m very annoyed with my grandma. She sold her house. Just thinking about it makes me teary eyed. I’ll never get to see the inside of that house again. The house that I spent so many years in, so many christmas, thanksgiving, holidays with the family. SO much time during the summer running around with my grandpa, learning to cook in that kitchen. The funerals of both Grandpa and GG there and all the family huddled into the dining room/kitchen laughing and talking. It’ll just never feel like “home” in her new place. I don’t know what the big fucking deal was to sell it. It’s paid off, they spent tons of FREE money fixing the place up, her and my aunt have spent countless hours working on the gardens. It’s a perfectly fine house. I think that my aunt sheila has something to do with pushing her to sell, but I dunno what the true motivations are. It’s very upsetting to me but it’s not my house and not my decision either.
New years was much the same, I spent the day home alone. Calvin and I facetimed which was nice.
The day before new years I sort of cornered my boss and made him give me an answer on two things that I’ve been waiting for… The first is my “raise” that I should have got back in JULY. My “raise” this year is 9 extra vacation days. Which is actually really nice. So I now get almost 5 weeks of vacation!! I can’t wait to start using it! The second thing is something recent and he approved it as well, working remotely. Which means that I can now go spend one week a month in Kingston and live with Calvey! Yes!!!
I met Jason again for the first time face-to-face. It wasn’t as bad as I expected. We did a 22 mile bike ride and I was able to keep up with him pretty good. It was nice to get back to talking to him but I already see those annoying traits coming out that annoyed the hell out of me the first time so I’m not sure how long this stint will last.
Calvin arrived on the 3rd of Jan and it was just amazing. Seeing his face again, holding him, getting to go to bed with him. All so amazing and there just aren’t words to describe my feelings for him. So I’m going to not really talk about those and just talk about what we did.
Tuesday night we had our own little christmas. He got me a Wok and Rice cooker. Both I’m very excited to start using! 🙂 We also had some really hot sex!
Wed I went to work early and did a half day of work. Came home, picked him up and we went to Redondo Beach, showed him the peir, my old apartment, walked around the village, sat on the beach. My favorite part was sitting on the beach with him, just cuddling, talking, watching the sunset and listening to the waves. They were all so amazing.
From there we drove down to my HIV doctor and met with him. I was really glad that Calvin was there for that and he talked to the doc some and we got some great info this time. He put me on meds and before he would agree he gave us like this 30 min lecture about the history of drugs and how important it is to take them and everything. During that part I felt like I was just going to burst out crying. It took a lot to hold it back. I can’t believe that here I am just under 30 and I’m already going to be stuck on drugs for the rest of my life. It was so important to me that Calvin wanted to be there for me and showed his support.
We left and went to get sushi at my favorite place. Calvin really liked it because he said it was truly “authentic” japanese. I had no idea. 🙂 I miss eating there all the time though. I wish my new hood had better places to eat! Maybe that should be my next venture, start some better eating establishments in my area. After eating quickly we drove over to the climbing gym. Walked in and of course Sophia was there. I sort of just ignored her. It’s so hard for me to make amends with someone who has wronged me when I haven’t done anything that I know of to her. I’m too prideful in myself to go up and be the better person, even though I know that I should be. I can’t and don’t want someone in my life who doesn’t respect my friendship. Clearly she didn’t respect me so I don’t see why I should really try to make amends to her.
Went home after that and had an amazing night at home, more sex of course.
Thursday we were going to go skiing, but since there is no snow that didn’t happen. Instead we went downtown and ate at Orochon Ramen, which he loved. Then drove out to the huntington library. Which was apparently having a “Free” day, Yet they still wouldn’t let us in because we didn’t book tickets online. WTF! If you’re having a “FREE” day why not just let people in! And who the fuck knows that it’s free that day and that you have to book online. I looked at the website the day before and didn’t see anything. I was so pissed….
So instead we drove over to the LA Arboretum and looked around there. It’s nice there, but not anywhere close to what the huntington has to offer. Calvin sure did seem to enjoy it though so that’s what matters. I think that night we just went home and packed for Friday, baked and slept.
Friday we got up early and headed off to Los Padres National forest. Had an amazing time there. I had found these hot tubs that were out in the wilderness. Reading about them people were constantly complaining about how full they were, etc so I was a little scared that there were going to be a ton of people. We got super lucky and got the last campsite within walking distance of the hot tubs. We shared it with this cool old guy named Frank.
Spent the afternoon just walking, talking, napping (best part!) and hot tubbing! The tubs were amazing and so hot!
Saturday we woke up and my phone was DEAD! Drove back to Santa barb and went to this orchid place that Calvin’s been wanting to hit up for YEARS apparently. It was super cute to see him so excited and having so much fun. He spent a lot of time just chatting with this old guy who worked there. I got myself an orchid even!!!!!
From there we drove over to the AT&T store, I bought myself a new phone, then off to Los Olivos for wine tasting, then SLO for the mission, then Paso Robles for more wine tasting. Calvin lost his wallet in there somewhere which really sucks. He was having a bad time with keeping track of things this break. I can’t remember if I mentioned that he lost the scarf I bought him in Peru… Which really hurts my heart. :'(
He was getting super touchy/happy/drunk at the wine tasting which was so adorable! From there we drove over to “Robin’s” and had a great dinner, then off to “FogCatcher Inn” for the night.
Woke up Sunday morning and drove up to Hearst Castle, checked that out. They changed the way that the tours are so now you can actually walk around the gardens on your own! So AWESOME! I love that! Though I felt like the actual tour part of the trip was shorter then the last time.
Went a bit farther north to the Elephant seals and spent some time there…. That’s when trouble started. We were leaving and he was using my phone to check us into facebook. He “accidentally” started reading my messages to Tim Sirin. Tim and I have always had a very very flirty relationship/friendship and our latest conversation was probably even overly flirty.
I screwed up, I admit that. But calvin also screwed up by invading my privacy and reading things that he shouldn’t have been into. The whole 4 hour drive home was an argument about it. I felt like shit, he felt like shit, etc. Ugh. I can’t even really bring myself to write about it because I’m so sad about the whole situation. Anyhow. I think that we can be strong and get past it. I hope so.
I have booked tickets to go see Calvin Jan 19-23; Feb 17-26; He’s coming here March 11-19. So at least for the next three months we have things planned out. April we’ll have to figure out then in May he’ll hopefully be moving here for the summer…. At least I hope we are together still then. This one is truly a keeper.
I want to write about the other social issues, involving the climbing group, but I don’t have the energy for that right now.
3 responses to “Hot Tubs, Wine Tasting, Hearst, Seals, Screw Up…”
Finally, get a good one, happy for you! Sorry, for the HIV thing. Good luck! Is it Calvin and Clo is same person.
Sweetie Grandma sold the house because she couldn’t handle the upkeep or the expense. The house was great and she would have loved to have stayed there forever but she can’t do stairs like she used to and the snow/unattached garage in the winter were becoming a huge issue for her. Not to mention how crazy the utility bills were in that big house. Nobody pushed her into doing anything-it was her idea, she’s been talking about doing it for several years and she decided it was time. We were just there to offer love and moral support (and physical labor-omg that woman was a packrat) during the process. I know it’s hard to let go of the old house-especially since you didn’t get to have those last moments there with us but I think this is a really positive change for her-a lot less stress and worries (at least now that it’s all over!) At the risk of sounding cliche-home is where the heart is-all those memories you have are alive inside you and even if the house isn’t there anymore you still have them and always will.
((Hugs)), ((hugs)), and double ((hugs))
Hahah. Thanks. Yeah, Clo and Calvin are the same person