30 Years of HIV this month.
Day 0 of ALC 10 today.
Day 1 of HIV+ for me today.
I got my results today, I’m positive.
I want to jump off a bridge.
I have to tell Eric. I’m going to kill myself if I gave this horrible thing to him. He’s such an amazing boyfriend and person. I couldn’t ever live with myself if I gave it to him.
I was last tested in Dec. I was negative then. I haven’t slept with anyone but Eric since. Before, I was sleeping with this guy, very regularly, we had been getting tested regularly. He was negative. I was negative. We stopped using condoms.
I called him after I got my results. He tested positive a month ago, he never told me. Asshole.