So I think I’ve made a decision about Blake’s number one issue…
I don’t think I’m going to let it effect me in any way. And if he dies because of cancer, then I’ll just have to live with that. I really like him and think that there might be something there that can work out in the long run. I mean, he was so amazing. I haven’t felt like this since andrew and I started.. Honestly. I mean even after this short weekend together I find myself thinking about him all the time.. And not to sound creepy but I like to look at his pictures and just sit there and think about him. And I missed him when he was gone.
So yeah, I think that if something were to happen.. and then he passed. I’d be happier in the long run then if nothing happened. Because at least then I can say, I had this great boyfriend… (Well hopefully he’ll be a great boyfriend. haha).
But I really hope that he can pull through. I guess only time will tell.