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Everything Hates Me

Ok, so this’ll be a private update, mostly because I don’t know how much info will get released…

Yesterday was pretty good. I spent the day working and worked alot.

I got a shit load of stuff done. Finally got that user account info that I wanted, and a few other things done. Spent a lot of time on Vermont, etc.

Went home and watched Gilmore girls while I spent some time unpacking a large box of shit that I took from home. After that it was Boy Meets Boy and then Queer Eye.

I didn’t really get to see too much of them though because I was uber excited about Andrew’s possible news of him wanting to switch colleges. He said that he might want to go somewhere else after a semester, or so. And currently he said that he his top pick is SDSU. Which is where I applied to, and REALLY wanted to get into.

Also that job offer, etc was there. lol.

I have also been thinking about that a lot lately, about where I want to move when I graduate, and that was my first choice. So it’s exciting that perhaps, and I think right now it’s a BIG perhaps because SDSU is hard to get into, that Andrew and I might end up in the same city a year from now.

Now, hopefully this talk tonight goes well. I really want to just hurry up and get it over with, so that I can be heartbroken faster. I’ve been dreading it all day. I know that it’s going to be bad.

I still have yet to make up my mind as to what I want with it all. I see the positives and the negatives on both sides, really. And it’ll be hard no matter what happens.

I don’t really want to get into my thinking of the whole situation here though incase he reads it before we have the talk.

And what’s even harder is that he keeps sending mixed signals about what he wants… If only he would send ONE Signal so that I could prepare myself properly!

In other news, today’s been emotionally hard. I’ve had a couple break downs in my office, tears and all were involved. Nothing too bad. Though I think the Thursday after I get back it will be.

I just can’t believe that the summer is coming to a close so quickly. It seems like just a few weeks ago that Andrew and I hooked up, that all the drama happened with Adam. Where’d my summer go, and what the hell did I do with it all…

Oh, I worked and went to school. Sure I had a TON of great memories with Andrew… Things that I’ll never forget. But my summer was pretty much wasted working away. I don’t see how people can do it. The whole coporate thing. It just sucks.

Anyways, I’m done bitching.

Lates all.

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