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Andrew’s Back

So Andrew left Friday morning, and by noon I was already missing him. Even though I normally wouldn’t have even seen him tell like 8 that night. Luckly it started snowing in Ames, so I had an excuss to call him. So I did. We got to talk for a while about things, and that was cool.

By Saturday I was really missing him. He called and we talked for a while just after he got out of the lunch thing. Then he called later whilst Beak and the gang were at Wal-Mart and we talked for like 15-20 minutes. After that I called him back and told him that I missed him, I think it kind of surprised him, and afterwards I felt kinda stupid for calling him just to tell him that. Like I had told him too much.

That was the last I talked to him until later that night, I was surprised to see that he was calling me again. He was just calling to say that he was getting ready for bed, and he said that he missed me too. That made me feel so much better, to know that he felt the same way. Although, of course me being Queenie McNegativity, I couldn’t help but feel that he was just saying it because I called him and said it. But we talked a bit more, and I really did feel like he meant it.

Today he came back and I couldn’t wait to see him again. He met me and Adam at Adam’s house about 3ish. Luckly we didn’t have to stay there long and Andrew and I left to go places, we went to MHM and then his house, and just drove around alot. It was really fun to hang out with him again, and _really_ good to see him again. We talked about all kinds of things again…

Eventualy it was time to go, I didn’t want to, but we were out of things to do, so eh, it was time to go. I parked next to his car (In front of Adam’s house.) We leaned in and hugged, but I really wanted to kiss him good bye, a real kiss goodbye. But I felt as though I shouldn’t. Even though Adam wasn’t home, I couldn’t kiss him infront of Adam’s house. So I leaned in and kissed him on the cheek. Again, it was one of those things that after it happened, you felt kind of stupid about doing it. But then he leaned in and kissed me on the cheek to, again making me feel better. After that we departed ways.

The whole way home I was debating as to what I want. Everytime I talk with someone I think I know, yesterday Beak and I spent hours talking about everything that’s happened. And said I should go for what I want, but I don’t want to feel like Andrew’s a rebound boy. Also I felt kinda stupid all the way home about kissing him and about wanting to actually give him a real kiss.

I also felt bad because I haven’t been giving out friendship it’s all lately, at least I don’t feel like I have been. Perhaps to try and give Adam his time that he’s asking for, perhaps because I don’t know what I want yet, or that I want to know that all feelings really are reciprocated. Hopefully I’ll get some time to talk with Andrew about how he’s feeling soon. The last week before he left so much happened between us and we didn’t really talk much about it all.

Anyways. In accordance with the rules, I must send this to Andrew. lol. So I’m going to end it all here and get it out to him.


Cj B

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