On the hills…

Above the river, in amongst the trees.
Flows the flag, of Camp Mitigwa, Waving in the breeze.

Lately, that song has been about the only thing on my mind… Well that song and all the other songs that we sang as Boy Scouts.

I don’t know what it is that really brought all this back up. Maybe it’s that I want to camp this summer, maybe that it’s all the drama and I just want to get away for a while, perhaps it’s school, and the stress, maybe it’s the pictures that Adam and Andrew found, that reminded me of all the good times I had at camp, maybe it’s a lot of things, and a combination of things. But, lately, scouting is the only thing on my mind.

It’s been so hard to get over Scouting, and I don’t know why. Why do I still love an orginiaztion that hates me so? I don’t know.

I’ve been thinking about going back to work these this summer, maybe all of it, maybe just for Cub camp. I don’t know where though, I can’t go back to Mitigwa. Even though that’s the real place that I want to be. I talked to anouther gay guy about it here at ISU, he said Freeland Lesile, but that’s in WI, and I don’t like the idea of being thrown into something that I have no control over, somewher that I’ve never been before.

Maybe I can call up Chris, in his council, and ask if he’ll give me a job. That would be nice. At least that way I know someone that’s there.

I want to call Peg Dehout (sp?). But I don’t know what I’d say to her. I want to call Pete, but I don’t know what I’d say to him.

I just want to work somewhere fun this summer, somewhere that I know I’ll enjoy it. I want to be outside, and go back to what I’ve done so many times in the past. Why is everyone holding me back from this. Why?

I’m going to call people this week. I don’t know when, but I will.

In other news. Today was Adam and my one year. Congratulations to us!

And 3 down, one more final left to go. I can’t wait for the semester to be over.

I don’t know why they complain about what they’re getting paid. Do a search for “premkumar G”. Yeah, he’s TOTALLY not worth anywhere near that. Fucker.