15:03:07 Adam – Sluk: Hi!
15:03:11 pischkoa: Hi
15:03:22 Adam – Sluk: What’s up?
15:03:29 Adam – Sluk: I love you.
15:03:36 pischkoa: Not much, just working… How about you??
15:03:39 pischkoa: I love you too.
15:04:07 Adam – Sluk: Waiting for Missy…she takes like an hour to get ready, so she won’t be here till like 4
15:04:46 pischkoa: I see, where are you going?
15:04:57 Adam – Sluk: I have no idea.
15:05:01 pischkoa: Oh, I see.
15:05:04 Adam – Sluk: Just doing something…
15:05:06 Adam – Sluk: lol
15:05:09 pischkoa: So where’d you go last night?
15:05:15 Adam – Sluk: So how was your day been
15:05:28 pischkoa: It’s alright. I bought a new computer.
15:05:58 Adam – Sluk: Hung out with Missy and Rob. Tara and Jessica showed up, Tara was a bitch and flipped out so we (Missy, Rob and I) said fuck this and went to the loop.
15:06:04 Adam – Sluk: Really? What kind?
15:06:18 pischkoa: Same as the one I’ve got now.
15:06:28 Adam – Sluk: Sweet action! Congrats!
15:06:29 pischkoa: I see. So you had fun then, eh?
15:06:37 Adam – Sluk: Everything ok?
15:06:40 pischkoa: Yeah.
15:06:44 Adam – Sluk: Promise?
15:06:47 pischkoa: Yes.
15:06:55 Adam – Sluk: How did the doc appt go?
15:07:12 pischkoa: Fine… She said to stay on the meds, it’s either bichy, or now sex….
15:07:16 pischkoa: no*
15:07:46 Adam – Sluk: Hmm, why does she insist on staying on *those* meds?
15:07:49 pischkoa: So what have you been up to today?
15:08:07 pischkoa: Cause that’s pretttly much all that’s left, unless you don’t want to have sex.
15:08:36 Adam – Sluk: I can deal with that…It’s a lot harder to deal with not knowing what’s in your head.
15:09:39 Adam – Sluk: I guess you’re going to get your time though to go out without me, like you said you wanted not all that long ago.. Enjoy.
15:09:46 Adam – Sluk: What’s that mean?
15:10:22 Adam – Sluk: I know you’re mad in general at the stituation, but are you mad at me?
15:12:14 Adam – Sluk: ???
15:13:46 Adam – Sluk: Hello?
15:13:54 pischkoa: Sorry.
15:14:12 Adam – Sluk: Sorry?
15:14:14 pischkoa: No, I’m not mad are you…
15:14:20 pischkoa: (I had to go somewhere)
15:14:24 Adam – Sluk: Oh..
15:14:39 Adam – Sluk: It seems like you are xtremely resentfull of me right now.
15:14:40 pischkoa: You said like two weeks ago, that we should go out more seperatly.. You’re getting that now, so enjoy that time.
15:14:47 Adam – Sluk: Why would you say that?
15:15:02 pischkoa: Say what?
15:15:03 Adam – Sluk: Bull shit, you know that THIS is not what I wanted
15:15:17 pischkoa: Then what do you want?
15:16:32 Adam – Sluk: I want to be with you, that doesn’t nessisarily mean we’re attached at the hip…it also doesn’t mean we don’t see eacother for a week at a time either. How could you look at this situation and think that’s what I WANT? that hurts that you would think that
15:19:26 pischkoa: I didn’t say that we weren’t going to see each other for a week. I’m not accusing you of not wanting to spend time with me. I’m just saying that you said we should go out more seperatly.. And now you’re getting that time to do it… So enjoy that time… I’m pissed off at me, not you because it’s me that can’t go out and it’s my schedule that isn’t allowing it. It’s my choice to go to school and to work… I could have not taken classes this summer and spent another semester in school… But I didn’t think it would put this much of a burden on our relationship and I didn’t think it would be this hard for me to go out. The whole situation is just really pissing me off right now. And I can’t help that.
15:21:46 Adam – Sluk: It’s pissing me off too. We’ve been going through a couple rough patches lately, rougher than we’re used to anyway, and I think I’ve remained pretty cool about it, but when I talk to you, or read your site , I feel sad becasue I’m going out and I’m having fun and you can’t
‘t.
15:23:43 Adam – Sluk: And I feel like you’re doubting us. I don’t like where this is going. We need to end this now or our relationship is going to suffer. Something has to happen, I don’t want to lose you Chris.
15:24:03 Adam – Sluk: I’m scared…I don’t like this
15:24:46 pischkoa: And I don’t want to lose you either… You shouldn’t feel sad about it, it’s my problem… Go out and have fun.
15:25:26 Adam – Sluk: It doesn’t work that way Chris, that just out of sight out of mind. as soon as I talk to you the real world bites me.
15:25:59 Adam – Sluk: Now you tink with the next class you won’t have to study and shit as much?
15:26:00 pischkoa: I’m not in anyway doubting us and that hurts me that you feel that way.. What have I done to make you feel that I’m doubting out relationship??
15:26:24 pischkoa: I don’t think so, but I never know, I didn’t think this whole summer thing was going to be THIS big of a deal, but it’s turned out to be.
15:26:39 Adam – Sluk: I don’t know, that’s just how I feel…I’m sorry
15:27:23 pischkoa: Why do you feel like that though?
15:27:50 Adam – Sluk: The fact that I’m sitting here crying does it enough. I havn’t cried about us since we broke up. It scares me Chris. I’m not doubting us at all I swear, but I’m scared for us
15:28:23 Adam – Sluk: I don’t want anyhitng to come between us, ever.
15:28:35 Adam – Sluk: This sucks and I am completely powerless
15:29:40 pischkoa: Adam, every night I go to bed crying because I can’t go out, every night that I have to leave early, or just can’t go out period. I go home and I cry and I go to bed crying because I can’t be with you and I know that it hurts you. I agree that this sucs and I’m completely powerless as well….. Nothing will come between us, we went though alot worse then this before, well make it through this… It’s just going to take some talking.
15:29:42 Adam – Sluk: I feel depressed for the first time in a long time, and I can’t do this by myself
15:31:36 pischkoa: I’m sorry that I’m doing this to you… But, I don’t know what I can do to help it. I have to work to be able to support myself and I have to go to school to be able to graduate on time. I’ll be there as much as I can…. I love you, and I want to be there as much as I can.
15:32:46 Adam – Sluk: I know, and don’t think you’re doing this to me. You don’t have any more choicers than anyone else. This is’nt your fault at all. IT’s the consequences we have to for something good to happen. Don’t worry about me.
15:33:00 Adam – Sluk: WQe just need to talk and figure out ways to get more time together
15:33:09 pischkoa: I am going to worry about me, just like you’ve benen worrying about me.
15:33:44 Adam – Sluk: I worry about you nayway, it no big deal
15:34:01 pischkoa: worry about you*
15:34:16 Adam – Sluk: I know…by what you mean not what you say…
15:34:25 pischkoa: Ok, I just wanted to make sure.
15:37:30 Adam – Sluk: We can deal Chris, I know we can. It’ll just take some effort on both parts
15:38:02 pischkoa: It’ll take alot of effort on both our parts, but I know we can deal with it.
15:38:12 Adam – Sluk: I love you
15:38:15 pischkoa: I love you too
15:38:21 Adam – Sluk: *hugs*
15:38:24 pischkoa: ::hugs::
15:38:27 pischkoa: :-*
15:38:45 Adam – Sluk: In other news, I have blue hair…
15:38:53 pischkoa: Cool bean.
15:39:01 Adam – Sluk: And I slept till 2:30 and about shit my shorts
15:39:15 pischkoa: Dork, perhaps you should go to bed earlier
15:39:21 Adam – Sluk: I freaked out…I am now going to set an alarm…
15:39:37 Adam – Sluk: I got to bed at like 1 or 2…I just don’t sleep
15:40:45 pischkoa: lol
15:41:17 Adam – Sluk: We should go to the First Friday Brekfast Club next month with Dustin and Rob
15:41:26 Adam – Sluk: OK ait, total topic change…
15:41:26 pischkoa: When is it?
15:41:32 Adam – Sluk: Called Gap this morning
15:41:42 Adam – Sluk: First Friday of the month
15:41:50 pischkoa: Time??
15:41:55 Adam – Sluk: And I am hired…
15:42:00 Adam – Sluk: however…
15:42:41 Adam – Sluk: They’re hiring more people and it’s not very effient to only train one person in the class, so they won’t train me till end of July…
15:42:54 Adam – Sluk: So it appears the job search will go on…
15:43:15 Adam – Sluk: FUCK I hate job searching
15:43:29 pischkoa: Hmmm, that sucks.. I wonder if they realize how un-business like that is to make prospective employees wait that long to start.
15:43:38 pischkoa: Good job on getting hired though…lol
15:43:40 Adam – Sluk: Apparently not…
15:43:42 Adam – Sluk: Thanks
15:44:12 Adam – Sluk: I’m pissed though. I *really* wanted to quit soon. Preferably before the weekend so I can go to the parade onm Sunday
15:44:19 pischkoa: Yeah
15:44:29 Adam – Sluk: Grrr…can’t anything ever be simple
15:44:34 pischkoa: Nope
15:45:09 Adam – Sluk: From me experience the Gap isn’t ery professional anyway, they’ve never called me back, they make me wait a week betwwen potential phone callss
15:45:26 pischkoa: Yeah, I would say they aren’t very professional.
15:45:48 Adam – Sluk: Well, Rob and Missy are applying at Perkins…maybe I’ll go there *shudder*
15:46:03 pischkoa: lol
15:46:14 pischkoa: Missy already has a job, why’s she applying for another one?
15:46:40 Adam – Sluk: Missy talked at one point about working at a truck stop, I guess you make decent money and awesome tips from crazy truck drivers…
15:46:46 pischkoa: lol
15:46:53 Adam – Sluk: She doesn’t like Hy Vee anymore than we do…
15:46:56 pischkoa: While you suck thier dicks you make awesome tips.
15:47:08 Adam – Sluk: *shudder again*
15:47:28 Adam – Sluk: So maybe today Missy and I will play Apllication Handing in Game
15:47:37 pischkoa: Fun times.
15:47:45 Adam – Sluk: Not really…
15:48:06 Adam – Sluk: Ha here we go…if Krell hires me then we can spend time together…
15:48:13 pischkoa: Ha, yeah right.
15:48:43 Adam – Sluk: I dress up like Ramsey, and I’ll kidnap him and keep him in the shed, and I’ll come to work for him
15:48:59 pischkoa: Sure thing, cause you tow look so much alike.
15:49:34 Adam – Sluk: Make up…curly shaggy wig…I’m hot to boot and from what I’ve heard about Nazanine, she’d never notice the difference…
15:50:03 pischkoa: lol, only you’re like 10 feet talled them him and don’t have the accentish thing he’s got going.
15:50:22 Adam – Sluk: I can fakje it…the hight thing would take some planning
15:50:30 pischkoa: lol
15:50:43 Adam – Sluk: *wrings hands* Mwa ha ha ha ha
15:52:17 pischkoa: http://www.walmart.com/catalog/product.gsp?product_id=1841114&cat=86798&type=1&dept=3944&path=0%3A3944%3A3951%3A41937%3A86796%3A86798
15:54:04 pischkoa: Ok, I have to leave, I guess I’ll see you tomorrow since you’re already going out with Missy tonight.
15:54:07 pischkoa: Love you ::hugs:: :-*
15:54:20 Adam – Sluk: OK babe! Love you!
15:54:27 Adam – Sluk: \*hiusg*
15:54:30 Adam – Sluk: wow…
15:54:34 Adam – Sluk: *hugs*
15:54:40 pischkoa: Bye!
15:54:52 Adam – Sluk: Bye!