July 28, #2 [Savage Garden, "Tears Of Pearl"]
Well today so far hasn’t been to good. Yeah, Adam came over and got me
about 11:30 or so this morning and we went to Ames to get his ear pierced,
of course I had to get mine done too, so we did that. I now have another
earring. But yeah, then we went out and just did random things, we went
shopping and such. It hasn’t been a good day though cause, well, it’s hard
to explain. I love being around Adam cause he’s so funny and great to be
around, but at the same time, I hate bieng around him cause all those feelings
come back. And it’s hard for me to deal with them. Today I was just being
a total jerk, and I regret that. But that’s the way I was dealing with those
emotions today. Like last night I delt with them by bieng all flirty and
giddy, and today I’m just dealing with them by being a jerk. It sucks, I
know, and it’s a bad way to do it.