may 29, #2 [celine dion, "my heart will go on"] can’t i just fucking
shoot my parents, my dad just yelled at me agian for that $85 phone bill.
he’s like, "i told you not to talk so long the first time" and i
was like, no you didn’t. and he just wouldn’t let it drop, some how we got
to the point of "what do you think we’re just going to give you a blank
check" and i was like "no" and then we got to "well how
long have you not had a job" and to that i said "HOW LONG HAVE I
HAD A JOB" and he let that drop. the stupid bastard. i mean comon, lately
i’ve been paying for almost everything i’ve had to get. they hanve’t bought
me clothes in over a year now, and it’s not because i don’t need them it’s
because they won’t buy me clothes. [the step kings, "vibe"] one
week i’ll be like, "mom i need new clothes" and she’s like "next
week we’ll go out" next week comes along, "mom i stil needs new
clothes", "next week" and they just keep putting shit off.
and ya know, after you have so many holes in things, you just go out and buy
the shit yourself. i really am ready to fucking shoot them if i don’t get
out of here soon. it’s like god damnit, they give everything to andy, but
me, what the hell do i get. i get moved out of MY room. i get yelled at for
every little thing, they go through my room and take stuff that’s "inappropriate"
and they don’t do that shit to andy. andy steals shit out of my room, and
gets away with it, but if i even step into his room i get yelled at. i work
my ass off keeping this place clean cause their all pigs, and don’t get shit,
but andy does shit and gets an allowanc for it. i ws never offered an aloowance,
and when i asked they said some shit about i should do it weather i’m aid
for it or not. i worked my ass off at his store for nothing, and andy never
had to do that, how much money did i save him and that damn store by working
all those fucking weekends and early mornings? he didn’t have to pay an extra
employee to work, so that had to have saved him shit loads of money, how many
years did i work at kum & go, how many hours do i put in at scout camp?
y aknow i’ve probably worked more hours then most 25 year olds have. and yet
he can’t pay for a fucking $85 phone bill. ya know something else. my contacts
too, my dad and andy went out together and got new glasses, over $400 for
the both of them. i told my mom back at thanksgiving, and christmas, and spring
break and easter to get an appointment set up for me, do you think she did?
nope, so i had to go get it done on my own, she said she would rimburse me.
so i get the cheapest contacts, one years supply of shit is $115. plus the
$70 for the doctor exam. now she won’t reimburse me. so there’s $185 plus
$85 for the phone bill that i wasn’t expecting to have to pay i _DON’T HAVE
THAT KIND OF MONEY_ oh yeah, i also had to pay for my own doctors visit for
my physical the other day, they wouldn’t pay for that either. i don’t remember
how much that was, but i know i dont have the omney to cover that, there’s
yet anouther bounced check. fucking ass holes. why can’t i get away from them
NOW.