Month: May 2005

I’m very un-motivated right now. I want to just sit in my apartment all the time and do nothing. Watch TV, mindless TV and do absolutely nothing. I’m getting so fed up with our governmental system and coming into work every day and not learning anything and usually not having anything to do. I’m fed up with stupid people who IM me and all they want is sex. I’m fed up with not being able to get funding for my startup. And I’m fed up with not being able to go to Java Joe’s/etc. Blah.

I want to just sit in my apartment and give up, give up on trying to change anything, because it doesn’t seem to be working.

I’m really annoyed by the fact that I’m always ignored at work. I ask for information and I rarely get it. I get things assigned to me with no explanation of what it is, or what I need to do with it. I get things assigned to me that I have no idea how to do, and when I ask for instructions on how to do it, the project gets taken away from me. It’s not my fault that I’m not here during the day when it would be easier for you to explain it. So why is it so hard for you to shoot me an e-mail with some basic instructions. I don’t need every step of every thing laid out. I just need some good clear basic steps to get things done. I’m a fairly smart person, or at least I think I am and can usually figure things out.

I’m also annoyed with our fucking goverenment. Apparently there was a nice little bill slipped in on some major budget bill which says that now EVERY school which recieves federal money, including colleges, etc. HAVE to spend the entire day of Sept 17th teaching about the constitution! Now, yes everyone SHOULD learn about it… But making it a federal LAW. That’s insane. Congress SHOULD NOT be able to tell schools when or WHAT they teach. This is obsurd! We really need a good presedent/congress to go in there and cut out all this bullshit legislation that’s been passed in the last 60 or so years.

I also really want to get some funding for my startup ideas. I know they’d be very profitable here in So Cal… But trying to find $600,000 is harder then one would think. There’s this one company that will find you money, but you have to pay them… I’m thiking about doing it. I mean it’s only $1,000. Whatever…. It’d be nice though to get that started before someone else has the idea.

Andrew and I have been talking nightly again. And it’s so good. I really missed that.

Night all.