I Hate January

So it’s January 22nd, that horrid time of year again. Yep, that’s right. It’s my b-day and I’m 20 years old. I feel like a damn old fart again. lol. I hate b-day’s, especialy mine. And this year it seems as though it’s pissing me of even more then normal. Last night at the GLRC it pissed me off to. EVen though there wasn’t a GLRC meeting, but that’s beside the point, the whole lot of us went out to Java Joe’s. It came up that it was my b-day on the 22nd and yet not a single person said, “Oh, Happy B-day” Gwar. I did get a card from Adam and family which was nice. It was a really cute card. But it just really pissed me off, Mandy’s b-day we all did something. Adam’s B-day we all did something. But mine. Not a thing, Fuck it. I hate B-days.

Last night I did have fun though. Adam and I got to talk about things, we all got to go out, which we haven’t done in a while. And it was good times. Adam and were talknig though and we realized that we haven’t been going out at much as we used to, or at least it doesn’t seem like it. But in reality we have been going out as much as we always have. It’s just that we haven’t really had any thing to do the last couple weeks because of the whole holiday thing, and also with it being cold, there’s not as much to do at Java Joe’s and the like. But we decided that we’re going to go out “more” then we have been. We’ll see how it works out. But it should be good.

I couldn’t sleep at all last night and it really sucked. All kinds of random things kept going through my head, like finances, trying to find ways that Adam and I can live together in a year, or how I could get an apartment this summer. Just trying to get my life going in a direction that I want it too. Not that it’s not already, but I’m trying to figure out what I’m going to do over the next couple years while Adam and I are still in school. I dunno, last night was just a night of thinking.

I dunno. I just hope this week goes by fast so that I can see Adam this weekend. And I hope that his PU’s go out this weekend as well so that we can have some quality time together. And since he is grounded we’ll be able to hang out alot this weekend, unlike the small amount of time that we got this past weekend.

So I’m shopping on-line some, I really want to buy the QaF-US DVD set. It’d be fucking cool. 17 hours of show. I so want that show. But I just can’t afford it right now. I’m going to put myself on a very strict budget. I get $400 a month to spend, and from that I have to pay my car bill, cell phone bill and gas. Which should add up to about $360 or so. And then the extra $40 is spending money and anything over $400 goes into savings and stays there. Damnit. I’m going to have money for spring break and such. We will go on a roadtrip somewhere.

Oh, speaking of going palces though. My mom and Andy made a deal that if he gets on the honor roll they’re going to go to Florida over spring break. Now first. Why the hell didn’t I get this kind of stuff when I was on the honor roll. I was on the honor roll five semesters and I was on the presidents list for both semesters at DSU and I didn’t get jack squat extra. Hell I was lucky if they said good job or something and here they’re talking about taking him to Florida. What the fuck is up with that. Second, if they really do go through with this, then there’s going to be a party at my house over spring break. 😉

Ok, well here it is, like 4 hours after I started writing this update. I kept getting interupted. So yeah. I’m finally going to post, laters all.

Sept 11, 2001

Sept 11, [Enya, "Lazy Days"]

Wow, lots of fucked up emtions going on today. First we’ve got that whole

bombing shit in NY and Washington and other such stuff. Then there’s things

with Adam. I also found out that Adam came-out to his mom. And omg, just

so much fucking shit going on.

At work today I met with that Australian guy, he was funny. I got my budget

approved and then I had to leave cause internet was down to the sites that

I needed to work today. So I got out of there early. That was cool.

Adam and I have alot to talk about right now, with him and his mom and

alot of other things that have been happening lately. Our friendship is

close, but I think there’s a littele turbulance starting. I want to keep

it the way that it is now. I don’t want to turbulance. So I’m going to call

him and talk to him tonight about that. It’ll all work out alright.