Prom

He sat at the table, pertrified. “Don’t worry about it,” “Everything will

be fine,” “Nothing will happen,” “We’ll be there right behind you.” The

constant buzz of words was becoming grinding. His sight went blurry. Then,

a gentle touch on the knee brought him out of his trance. “C’mon, let’s

go.” He stood. The familiar fingertips led him out into the open. Music

played but it faded into the buzz, just like the words. Everything began to

play in slow motion. The protective bubble he had always felt, popped. He

embraced his boyfriend on the dance floor. Terrifying thoughts raced through

his mind at 600 mph…..”Are people staring? Are they talking? Are they

going to do something? Will anything happen when we try to leave?”

Suddenly, he felt a soft kiss on his cheek along with whispered words, “It’s

okay.”

He turned away. An eternity later, the buzzing ended. They lost their

embrace. The urge to run away and hide was so overwhelming, he could hardly

walk back to the tables. “Let’s leave now to beat the rush in the parking

lot.”

In the car, tears formed pools in his eyes. He was engulfed by

disappointment and shame. The pools turned into rivers. He choked out the

first words he had uttered in half an hour, “I’m sorry…” His boyfriend

looked at him lovingly and replied, “You have no need to be.”

And he was right. The event that occured in the last 30 minutes was filled

with more emotion than most people experience in a lifetime. This one single

event revolutionized their relationship. They had always loved each other

but never found it necessary to prove it. Especially to other people. But

this oen tremendous feat proved to his boyfriend, and all of the people in

that ballroom, just how deep his love flowed for him. Despite all of the

terror and dread, he still stood up and proudly walked onto the dance floor,

at his high school prom, with his boyfriend.

Nothing he could ever do again would even come close to what this meant to

both of them. Their relationship was indestructible and we should all be so

lucky to experience even a fraction of the love they shared against all odds.

–Anonymous

Spring

Well I do beleive that spring is here. It’s so fucking nice outside… Yay. And all the hots guys are out in their tight little t-shirts and shorts that show off thier great asses… It’s so nice. lol.

I wanted to just grab them all and say, “lets go to the bathroom for a minute.” But I couldn’t, cause today was the Day of Silence. That was amusing as hell. But it’s all cool. I also went to the MU and looked at the display of posters. It was bad.

Not much really happening today. I’ve got a program to write here later, and I have a WindowsXP box to learn about. And get my Webcam working… It was working before, but then I updated the drivers for it and now it’s not working. Damn thing.

I’m going to start hauling shit that I don’t need back home this weekend… I hate having to move/pack so I do it in little increments… it’s all good.

I’m out, It’s so nice out side.

New Computers

Well it’s a good thing I got my computer when I did…. Today they raised the prices by $100 on the one that I got, the other two stayed the same… But the $100 is well worth it. They also upgraded to a cd-rw, added an extra 128 megs of RAM and 20 more gigs of HD space… I’d be willing to by another one… lol

I’ve got XP installed on the new computer. It’s going good so far. We’ll see how it works.

I’m off to play with my computers now.. Laters all.

Whew

Well I thought I had broken something….

But I got to work and checked my e-mail… They said I had nimada. Gotta love windows, in the couple hours that it was up from Sunday night to Monday morning. I had been infected with nimada. Great. Sorry, that’s why the website’s been down.

Ok, other news.. Last night I went to the GLRC, it was great times. Fun fun fun… I should go back more often.

I ran into Julian yesterday in the library. That was funny… We talked about random things.

I also registered for classes… Must still find more classes to take.

I talked to my advisor, that was alright.. I found out I’ve got a 3.0 in my Fundementals classes, so I’m good to go to get into my Major. Good times.

I GOT MY COMPUTER!!

Woot.
I’m out. For now.

A weekend I’ll never forget…

if I could only remember it all.

Well prom ROCKED. Like no other. It was so great. We got ready about 3:15 and then headed off to pick people up… We got to Annie’s about 4:30 or so and hung out there. Dylan was there, one of Annie’s friends from Lincoln. He was damn hot. We did the whole picture thing and then left there for Bucca Di Beppo’s. It was really packed there, but the food was pretty good. From there we headed off to the ballroom. We got there almost 45 minutes early, but they let us in anyways and the party started, and the nervousness increased…. Things went good though, we danced around with everyone and had a good time… Until 11:30, along it came… I was getting really nervous by then and I could tell Adam was. The slow songs were coming on and I wanted to dance, I was going to make him dance. I made him get up and helped him on with his coat. We walked out to the dance floor hand in hand… Chose a spot and I put my arms around him and we danced… The song seemed to go on for hours. I could tell he was nervous and I was getting even more nervous as every second went by.

I looked around as we danced, as did he. I saw that no one was staring. He was nervous, I told him not to worry, this was our time, we were dancing, but he wouldn’t let that past him, he wouldn’t not worry and just have fun and danced. I kissed him on the cheek and he turned away. We continued to dance with all our friends around us. Finally the song was over and we went back and sat down.. I was shaking so hard, it felt like it lasted for hours… But it was the best time and the worst time of my life.

We decided to leave after that… I would have liked to stay na dance one more song, but we didn’t, it was best to beat the everyone out of there.. And I’m glad we did leave, there was a bad accident on the Highway, so we had to take a detour home.

On the ride home Adam and I talked about things, he felt that he let me down because we didn’t dance more… I think it was mostly because Jessica and Mandy made him feel bad about it. But it was alright… He took a really big step that night, a step I know I never would have been able to take when I was in HS. I was really proud of him that night.

We got home and changed, and headed back to afterprom. Everything there went great. It was pretty boring until about 4am when the hypmotist started. He was great and made Dusting yell “I pissed my pants and I’m proud of it.” Alot. hehe, we laughed and made comments about the hot guys that were doing stupid things… hope not to many people get to see that video tape we made, lol. Lots of butt action shots there.

We left there about 6 and got to bed about 7ish. It was good. We slept tell 1:30 when we got up and took the tuxedos back. Then we went out to breakfast.. After that we went shopping then back to his house to watch movies and just hang out for the last couple hours before I had to come back to school. It was sad to leave last night, but it had been a really great weekend. I wish there would be more times like that, when I can just stay with him the whole weekend and we could have our house, it was our house that weekend. We lived together.

This will be a weekend I never forget….