April 18, 2001

pril 18, so last night was pretty great. yeah it was. danny called. i was

temped not to answer it cause he called at like 11, and i was like, who in

the hell would that be, and i was already in bed. but yeah. i answered and

i’m glad i did, it was so nice hearing his voice again. we talked tell like

1:30 or so and then we got cut off, i was going to call him back, but i was

like, i don’t want to take the chance of waking up his pu’s and such, so i

didn’t i feel asleep with the phone in my hand. lol. but it was soooo soooo

great hearing his voice again. god i missed him so much. i just wanna fucking

drive out there and see him so badly. so i’m talking to this guynamed travis,

i thought he would be like really stuck up and shit, he’s really cute,

but you, know he’s like mr. jock boy. but he’s actually really cool. ok _really

really_ cool. ok, so change of ideas, he’s a little slow in the head. my handle

for MSN is "that gay boi" and yeah, i actually had to tell him that

i was gay, i think it’s pretty clear that i was gay, just by looking at my

handle, don’t you think? lol. but yeah, he seems really pretty cool. i was

actually expecting him to do what j did, and j to do what he’s doing, which

is being freindly about it, even if he doesn’t accept it or what ever, cause

he doens’t know who i am. here’s the text

from our first convo. on to other things, vero’s the

boy is a boy scout, i find that amusing, no offense, but that’s pretty

cool. yeah, i dunn where i was going with that, but ok. ok i’m going now before

i make even less sense.

April 17, 2001

april 17, today just really, really really, sucks. i skipped my first class

cause i was in so much pain i couldn’t get out of bed, and then about 9 i

realized that my group was supposed to give a presentation today, so i don’t

know what happened there. oh well. and then i went to my programming class,

and that just sucked like normal. and i can’t get my damn pu’s out of my head,

i want to know what the fuck they know, damnit. and i want to know what the

fuck danny was talking about, i just want this day to be over. i really do.

i have a test tonight at 6:30 i haven’t started studying for it yet. i should.

i think i’ll leave about 5:30 or so and go study for it then. yeah. that’s

all for now, cause today just sucks.<

April 16, 2001

april 16, #3. OHHHHHHHH mother fucking shit, holy shit, mother fucking shit.

so i just got this e-mail from my PU’s, here’s what it said: Thought

I would drop you a note to let you know I got our identity back. You might

want to think twice about using our system for your e-mails. PU yeah,

what she’s talking about, is the last two days i wrote my rants and sent them

form thier e-mail to mine. so yeah, they fucking read the last two days rants,

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh shit, i’m in so fucking deep. fuck i thought i had deleted

them, but i forgot to delete them from the deleted items folder, shit, shit,

shit, shit, shit. HOLY SHIT. I’M DEAD!