Author: Cj B

may 16, #3 [phil collins, "Both sides of the story"] can’t i just

fucking shoot my dad. we’re having chicken grilled, we make it kinda like

a tortilla filling, but they don’t eat it like that. however i like it with

a tortilla shell. so i went out, "no tortilla shells", "no,

noone eats them when you’re not home", "well i’m home aren’t i and

i like them with chicken", "well run over and get some", "yeah

right", "DON’T TAKE THAT SHITTY ADITTUDE", "i don’t have

a shitty adittude", the stupid bastard he did it again, only thinking

of himself. i’m not going to fucking drive all the way to ankeny just to get

fucking toritlla shells, it’s a 30 minute round trip and since he’s an asshole

he wouldn’t have waited for me to get back before they ate, so i would have

missed it all anyways if i had gone. he’s such a bastard.

may 16, [brian mcknight, "back at one"] ok i feel really weird

writing this here. but this started out as a place that i can express myself

and write down what i’m feeling, so i’ve been thinking alot lately. and i

have feelings for someone in our "group" i mean i don’t really get

to talk to him all that often, we’ve never even really talked all that much.

when ever we’re around each other it’s with the rest of the group and such,

so i can’t really talk to him. but i mean, i’ve been thinking alot about him

since i got back home, well more like since spring break, but these feelings

have come out even more since i got home. sometimes i just want to go up to

him and ask him out to supper or something, but like i said, everytime i see

him, it’s with the rest of the group, and we’ve never really talked either.

it’s odd, we’re in such a small group of freinds, but i’ve never _really_

talked to any of them about my life or anything. nor do i really know about

thier life. but ok back on topic. i feel kinda weird about just going up and

asking him to supper, or even just talking personal stuff with him. cause

i don’t know if he shares the same feelings. but at the same time, i get the

feeling that he might. i dunno i suck at this shit.

may 15, #2 [tonic, "soldier’s daughter"]. so i was downstiars on

the computer using the internet and my dad comes in, "you on the internet",

"yeah", "so what are you hiding with the solitare game",

"nothing", "so who’s been calling here so late at night",

"friends", "well you think they could call at a decent time",

"it is a decent time", "friends from philly", "no",

"friends who", "just friends", they he walks off. does

so shit, comes back "you still on the internet", "yes",

"we don’t let andy on the internet tell mom gets home", "so",

"so how’s she supposed to call if you’re on the internet", "the

cell phone’s turned on", "why would she call the cell phone",

"cause the phone line is busy", then he starts yelling at me about

shit. it’s like, well damnit. get another fucking phone line or something.

how many times have i told you to get one? grrr.

may 15, [live, "selling the drama"] ok so sorry i haven’t really

updated this lately, it’s really annoying not having my computer hooked up

to the internet. i went into NP this morning at 6:30 thier raid card on shoemaker

was fried by lightening. $900 to replace the damn thing, luckly insurance

will pay for it. we even had to call bennett on the senior trip to get approval

to order a new one. hopefully it should be in by the end of the week so i’ll

have to go back in to install it. other then that nothing’s been going on

here today. it’s been pretty crappy. danny called last night, that was nice,

i wish i could call him more, but the pu’s are always around. lol.