Author: Cj B

Nov 26, 2001

Nov 26, [Aladdin Soundtrack, "A Whole New World"]

Man this really sucks, I was already depressed cause I had to come back

here and leave Adam, but now the weather is just adding to it. Grrr damn

weather.

I went to bed at like 9:30 last night. I fell asleep before I hit the damn

pillow, I woke up about 7:30, I really didn’t want to get out of bed. I

just wanted to lay there and sleep some more. But I had to get up and go

to class. I went to take a shower, there was a line, grrrr. I waited. I

got in, started the shower. It was cold. I turned it up tell it wouldn’t

turn anymore, it was still cold. I took a cold shower this morning. Got

out, went and got dressed, I was headed off to my class. I realized it was

raining out, gloomy and rainy. Yucky. I went down and got my mail. The A&F

mag was in there. That made me a bit happy. Really hot guy on the cover.

hehe. I went to class. It was cold and rainy. Grrr. After my first class

I went over to Curtiss and laid down on one of the benchess. I fell asleep,

I woke up about 10:45 and went out to meet Vero. It was cold and rainy.

Yuck.

Here I am now in my room, wanting to scream at the roomie, and find somewhere

else to live, but I jsut really don’t want to take the time to actually

move this semester. I mean I think I can put up with him for another semester.

Maybe I’ll be lucky and he’ll leave. But then he’ll take the bed thingy

with him, and that’ll mean I’ll have to bring mine up. But then I could

bring my fridge up and maybe a couch or something. I could rearrange the

way I like it.

I miss being home already. I don’t like it here, not one bit. :'(

I can’t wait tell Angel gets back. But at the same time I’m kinda worried

about her coming home. About Adam and her, and what may happen when she

comes back between the three of us. I dunno.

I’m glad I’m not in SD. Sucks to be them:

Nov 25, 2001

Nov 25, [Mary J. Blige, "A Dream"]

Ok, so I haven’t updated in like forever. Well lets see what’s happened….

Thanksgiving went ok. Pam was there. I didn’t say a single word to her

the entire day. The bitch. Well for that matter I hardly talked to any of

my family that day, that was good. Bout 4:30 or so Adam called and I went

over there and picked him up. From there we headed to Perry to meet up with

my Aunt and Cousin. We went and saw Harry Potter. A pretty good movie. After

that we went back to thier house and just talked and shit tell about midnight.

It was good times, my aunt seemed to like Adam.

Friday was Friday. I went up to Perry about 2:30ish and we went to Monsters

Inc. It was a prtty funny movie, but it wasn’t really what I was expecting,

Harry Potter was better. After that I stayed there and hung out tell about

8 then I went back to Ankeny and picked up Adam. From there we went and

picked up Mary and Mary. It was a good night, but I got a bit pissy. We

dropped Mary and Mary off at home about 12 and from there Adam and I had

a nice long talk about things between us. It was good to get them out there

and we resolved alot of things. We’re good. I don’t want to get into what

the probelms were though…..

Saturday, Oh yeah. Adam had to go to a t-day with Rob, so I hung out and

went shopping by myself all day. It was pretty good times. I didn’t find

anything that I wanted to get anyone though. Grrr. About 8, Adam called

me. I had been done shopping for about an hour, and I knew that he was going

to be back soon so I just drove around Ankeny. I got so fucking lost. Damn

Ankeny, lol. But yeah, I went over there and we just hang out all night

talking. It’s so great. I love to just sit there on his couch and talk to

him about random things, to just hold him in my arms or have him hold me

and to just watch TV. It’s just so great. The best feeling to to have his

hands on my shoulder, or my chest. I just can’t explain it.

Sunday, Adam called me about 11:30, so I went over there and we went shopping.

I found something that I’ll get him for Christmas, if I have any money.

lol. But yeah, after the shopping we went to work, well he went to work,

I went to study. But it was good times. I left there about 7:30 and here

it is almost 9. I’ve got almost 400 e-mails to go through, most of it looks

like junk, but there’s a bunch of stuff in there from niel and ben, I guess

there’s some problems brewing at NP.

Laters all

Nov 21, 2001

Nov 21, [Staind, "Fade"]

Ok, well last night was tons of fun, even though by the end of the night

I was tired and cranky. Oh well. I met up with Adam and everyone at Ankeny

High school, and we went to thier GSA meeting, that was tons of fun. I finally

got to meet Ms. Bair, she seemed pretty cool. We watched Common Ground,

A really good movie and it shows alot of JTT. MMMM, I love him. After that

Adam and I went down to the GLRC, where we were meeting the YGA people.

Mandy, Jessica, and Tara were there too. We all went to the Chat Nior and

talked to them, it was fun times. Adam and I got hugs from the two guys.

That was sweet. Cause they were HOT! After that we all went down to Java

Joe’s to open mic night. That wsa ok. I mean, for yeah…..

This morning wasn’t good though. I get up and my mom was yelling at me.

"WHERE ARE YOU CAR KEYS." So I was getting them and she just kept

yelling at me. Well I get them, and yell back at her, "THEY"RE

RIGHT HERE." and chuck them at her. The bitch. Then she screams back

at me, "YOU’RE GOING TO PAY FOR THAT." I was like, fuck you bitch.

If you would learn how to drive, you would know that there’s more then enough

room between my car and your car for you to get out. Grrr at her.

I’m supposed to be working on a manual for the conference room right now,

but I got bored with it. I figure if Chris can play solitar while he’s supposed

to be fixing Altair, then I can take some time to update my site. Yep.

I just needed someone to talk to

You were just too busy with yourself

You were never there for me to

Express how I felt

I just stuffed it down

Now I’m older and I feel like

I could let some of this anger fade

But it seems the surface

I am scratching

Is the bed that I have made

So where were you

When all this I was going through

You never took the time to ask me

Just what you could do

Nov 20, 2001

Nov 20, [Enrique Iglesias, “Hero”]

So I’m at work. Yep, work, and I’m updating my website. I make

good money to do this, hehe. So tonight’s the GSA, I’m really jazzed about

that. Should be good times.

I found out that Thanksgivig is now at my house. I guess my Aunt is sick,

so they’re moving it. That’s kinda good and kinda bad. We’ll see. I just

want to be able to go out with Adam that night. I’m going to really need

it after all the family is over there. Oh well.

There was something that I wanted to talk about, that’s why I came all

the way back to my office to update this, but now I can’t remember what

exactly it was. I mean. I have the idea in my head about what I wanted to

talk about, but I can’t put it in words right now. Maybe later

I know Vero hates when people do this, but I think the lyrics are pretty

self explanatory.

Would you dance

if I asked you to dance?

Would you run

and never look back?

Would you cry

if you saw me cry?

And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble

if I touched your lips?

Would you laugh?

Oh please tell me this.

Now would you die

for the one you loved?

Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

Would you swear

that you’ll always be mine?

Or would you lie?

would you run and hide?

Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

I don’t care…

You’re here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just want to hold you.

I just want to hold you.

Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

I don’t care…

You’re here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by your forever.

You can take my breath away.

 

I can be your hero.

I can kiss away the pain.

And I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

Nov 19, 2001

Nov 19, [O Town, “All Or Nothing, Dance Remix”]

Lala, So I went to the GLRC tonight, that was fun. I mean, for

a ton of little 2 year old running around, it was fun. But I actually did

have fun. And I found out that Mrs. C is telling people about it like I asked

her too. So that’s cool. I felt kinda ignored tonight, but I’m sure it was

just me being a twit. Oh well. I’m tired, so I’m not going to write much,

night all.