My Life

My Mess Up

I guess I messed up this weekend and have now hurt Blake. I honestly feel really bad about this. I guess I just didn’t realize the boundries of our relationship.

We’re not dating yet, so I was under the impression that we were just friends who really cared and loved each other. But I guess our relationship has boundries that I crossed.

I did kiss Brian this weekend, and Blake asked about it. So I couldn’t lie to him. I told him what happened. And I guess he’s upset about that. I realize that I did something wrong, and I feel bad about that. I wish I had known that this would have hurt him and that this was crossing the boundries of our relationship.

Looking back on it I probably should have known, because I do get jealous when he tells me about people flirting with him. And I am jealous that some guy bought him lots of things this past weekend when he was up in Fresno.

I really wish that I could do a LDR again. But after the stresses of doing it with Andrew, where we talked for a least an hour every day. I really don’t think I could handle an LDR with Blake, I mean there are days sometimes where we don’t get to talk. I would just go crazy! I just wished he lived closer so we could at least see each other every other weekend on min.

I don’t want to fuck things up with him before we even get to do anything. 🙁

2 replies on “My Mess Up”

Yes, clearly we must. Because if we can’t kiss or make out with other people then I’d say we’re pretty much dating, so maybe we should just make it oficial or something. Who knows.

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