So, Andrew got back last night.
Lots of crying, it was bad times.
I feel like I’m hurting everyone lately.
I hurt JonJon cause he wants something that he can’t have.
I hurt Andrew because I don’t feel ready to start back up on our relationship.
I just feel like shit now.
I was really hoping that once I saw him come down those stairs that everything would come back… That I would be so happy to see him.
I was hoping it’d be like every other time that I saw him after being a part for so long.
But instead, I was just hurt more.
I think I want some space right now. Just friends for a while.
I feel like I need to get to know him again… It’s been so long. I feel like I don’t know him.
I hate it. I hate this situation.