Ok, well I’m back because I don’t have anything else to do for the next 30 minutes. Umm, so yeah. What else has been going on in my life? Beats me really. Andrew and I have been talking a lot over the last couple days. This morning he said something about having sex when he got back. I said it was against the rules of being broken up, but he was like, “What rules, we can do whatever we want to do”.
Yeah, so I dunno what to think about that. I’m pretty sure he was being serious about talking about that because he went on about it for a while and never said any other way if he was joking or not. But yeah, I’m pretty sure that nothing will happen with him once he’s back because I really don’t want to have non-relationship sex with him. I mean there’s a reason we’re broken up, and I think that having sex while we’re broken up won’t help him figure out what he wants, and won’t help the situation any. So yeah, I guess we’ll have to see what’s going on with that and shit. Beats me. He said in his journal today that. I just don’t knnow what to think about things right now. No offense to him, but sometime I do enjoy being single now, since it is the first time in like three years that I have actually been single.
And also I’ve been thinking that if I’m going to be in a forced singledom, then I should take advantage of it. You know what I mean. Taking up my sluty phase now, since I never had one when I was younger. Like I said, I dunno what to think about things really.
I really want him back, but at the same time. I want to go and be a slut for a while. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see how things work out once he’s back here. Whatever. I think I’m going to put away my computer now because people are starting to look at my strange for sitting here with my computer out.
So laters for real this time.
TXT’s from JonJon this morning:
1)”it sucks that all i can settle 4 with you is just friends. Not 2 scare you off but I think I am starting to like you more then that. and thats bad no?”
2)”But I guess being just friends with you is really good too… better then not cuz i’m happy i met you and like i said I hope i don’t scare you off with this”
3)”I guess I’m just hopefull of more, but I’m not gonna push anything. Friends is good and i hope that nothing will change unless it’s for better”
Umm, what is it about me that makes people do this?!? No offense to Andrew. I dunno what to do with that boy.