Ok, so I’m having a bad night. I miss Topher so bad…. everyone left my room (didn’t ask me to come w/… but that’s another story) and I started listening to sad music… it wasn’t long before the pics came out, and I started crying. I had living like this. I feel isolated here. I feel left out.

But most of all, I feel sad. I’m so tired of feeling sad. I’m so tired of crying several times a week because I can’t bear to not see my Christopher anymore. No one understands.. I miss him so much.

I wish there was some way we could work it out so he could be here next semester.. or right now. I miss you baby….. more than you know.

Off to cry some more.. 🙁