I don’t realy feel like writing too many more of these. I feel as though I’ve written everything there is to say. I miss Andrew, and I miss him so much…. Now I’m just getting to be a crazy stalker.
Anyways, I wanted to say that I’d like to clear up by what I meant in the last private… I have no control over what he does out there, he can drink as much or as little as he wants. It’s his choice. I have even less control because we’re not dating any more. But none-the-less, I just want to ask that he drink in moderation. I want him to be safe, and I don’t want him hurt. That’s all. And I won’t get mad when he tells me about his getting drunk.
Another thing that I want to say is that I really hope that we stay in touch the next 4 months as we have this last week. Getting to talk to him nearly every day, for at least 30 minutes. It’s really good. I’m very happy when I talk to him, and it makes me feel so good to know that he’s not forgetting about us.
Though on the other hand, he’s moving on, at least it seems like it. And it’s sad. And I feel like shit for not moving on. I really need to, and I need to get going in my own life again. We’re over, and I need to get that sunk into my head. The last couple times that we’ve talked, I’ve tried to end it quickly and hang up before I get the urge to just scream out how much I miss him. I don’t think that’s something that needs to be said right now.
I have to move on… But I don’t want to.