[Back Street Boys, “I Want You Back”]
Ok, so tonight I went out with Julian, Dean, Mandy and Adam. It was good times to see everyone again. I haven’t seen Dean in like forever. So it was cool to get to hang out with him again. We went rollerskating the first part of the night, that was amusing. It was like teen night or something so there were a bunch of like 12 year olds there. But the Dj was pretty hot, so that was good. After that we went to Villiage Inn and ate supper, then we went downtown. It was a good night.
I’m still having a bit of a problem with somethings though. I feel as though when ever we go out with a large group, Adam tends to distance himself from me. I don’t really know how to explain it. Maybe I’m just being nittpicky (spelling) because of our commitmentless relationship status. I mean, the thought of him going out with someone else scares me to death. I would be so upset if that were to happen, but yet he doesn’t want a relationship with me. It’s all confusing. We talked about all this the other night which helped some, but still. I don’t think this problems going to go away until there is commitment, but I don’t want to push it. When and or if he’s ready, that’s when it will happen. I’ve given him my thoughts on the subject. He knows that I want a relationship again. So the balls in his court as to weather or not we start one again.
On a bit of a happier note; You have just read the first real entry created by Greymatter. YAY!