Sept 12, [Alanis Morissette, "Uninvited"]
What I Didn’t Want:
When I started junior high I was never really looking to meet someone to
fall in love with. But you know, a little love here and there never hurt
anyone. I remember the first day that I laid eyes on Paul. He was everything
anyone could ever want in a boy. I mean he was sweet and fine as hell and
he was just a genuinely nice guy. Paul and I hit it off immediately and
I wanted him more then anything else in the world, but at the time he was
going out with Charlene, my enemy at the time. Well Paul and I decided that
we should be friends, even though he knew how I felt for him because anyone
who couldn’t tell that was pretty stupid. So we went on and did what normal
friends do, but at the same time when we were kickin’ it or just chillin’
way down deep I had this burning love for him. The best thing about him
is that although he knew how I felt and the fact that I still to this day
call him the love of my life, he never held it against me and we remained
friends until last year when we were in 9th grade. He may only be 15 but
he is the only person I have truly been in love with. I mean sure I have
had plenty of Boyfriends and friends and slept with people but that is nothing
and I would give it all up just to be with him. But what can I do??? I am
happy that he is happy with my best friend and we will continue to be friends
forever, but he will always be my one true love.
-Lexi [nysyncboi961@hotmail.com]