My Life

July 29, 2001 #2

July 29, #2 [Savage Garden, "Crash And Burn"]

After I wrote that last update, I went out to the hot tub and thought some.

Some things went though my mind that were pretty rediculous, but none the

less, they were there, which means they’ve been there, questions about me.

Am I really able to have a boy friend, was it something that I did that

caused him to want to break it off. It was just really fast and unforeseen.

I don’t really know what to think of the whole situation. I really don’t.

Adam wrote a really good update

about it all tonight, I suggest you go read it. While I was reading it I

started to cry and I just couldn’t help myself. It really does mean so much

to me. I don’t know why though. It’s only been a month and a half since

we first met, yet in that month it feels like we’ve shared so much. So much

that I’ll never get back, and so much that he’ll never get back either.

So many firsts to, maybe that’s why it’s so hard for me, it is the first.

And it was a lot of firsts even in the short month that we dated. The short

month. And then, it’s all over. Over, I just can’t get that out of my head.

I don’t want it to be over, I’m not ready for it to be over. I thought that

we were on the right track. I kinda blame myself for what happened that

Saturday. I should have said stop. We aren’t ready for this. But I didn’t

I just let it go. One minute we were there, and the next we were here. Time

takes everything but memories.

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