july 1, [enrique englesias, "rythm divine"] well tonight just keeps
gettin better and better. well to start today hasn’t been the greatest. bennett
randomly showed up at my house today, my mom’s been bitchy about shit, and
yeah, not good day. then about 6 or so julian IMed me and we like, dean wants
to come tonight you wanna go pick him up. and i was like sure. but then mandy
and vero showed up here. and mandy started bitching about going to altoona
to pick him up, that just got to me. i was like damnit, if you don’t want
to go we could drop you off somewhere, or you ahve your car here so you don’t
ahve to go. and plus ya know, you’re not driving there so there’s really no
big deal. but yeah, we went to xaks and he was home so we dropped mandy off
there and went to altoona with me jules and vero. we got dean came back and
everyone was waiting at the park, well some people were, the rest of them
had gone to subway to get food. so we had to wait around and wait for them.
that wasn’t to bad, then we went ot kum and go, and i don’t know what all
was up there, but we had to hang around there forever. we ran into link and
he went and got nic then they came back and nic was being weird. i didn’t
really care so i didn’t get into it, it was nic being nic. we finally got
out of polk city at like 8:30 i was angered by that. i was like damnit. lets
go. then we went to ames to see someone that i don’t know, i didn’t really
have a problem with that, but it was mostly a waste of time, cause yeah. but
i could stand it. then we went to java joes. it was good times there. then
we went to the loop, the cops were there cause i guess there was another fight,
so we left and went back to java joes. people have been really gettin on my
nerves lately. especially about adam, tonight i’ve just been like lets go,
lets go, cause i was gettin bored just sittin around and plus mandy was in
a pretty bitchy mood and that just brought me down some and yeah. but yeah
about the whole adam thing. i mean i like him and shit, and i’m planning on
asking him out. but people have just been buggin the crap out of me, it’s
like damnit, just leave it alone. i don’t really care if i have his phone
number, i don’t care if i see him. i wanted to go to the loop to see people.
if he was there, i would have talked to him, but that’s all damnit. grrr.
and then i just got home and danny sent like 3 e-mails to me, they are fucking
ass long and i haven’t read them all but the last one said: "We need
to talk well that is if you actually want to since were not in a fucking relationship
anymore as you say" and it’s like god damnit, i don’t need this tonight.
i want to talk to him, but yeah. not tonight. grrr. there’s so much going
on in my head i need to go to bed now. night all.