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Making the last trek to GT today… Met up with my friends on All2Well a few days ago and have been sailing with them. They are sailing down with us.

First, it’s so nice again to have another boat to travel with and as much as I loved the Boston guys, all2well is more on my speed of doing things… Go check it out, then go back to boat and hang out. Not spend hours doing random various things.. haha.

Second, I fucking love their boat. I have a bit of envy with it. Granted I could have NEVER afforded their boat. But damn it’s nice. They also must spend so much time cleaning though cause it’s spotless. hahah.

Having another boat to travel with makes this whole situation so different and it makes me confused about what I want to do…

Also I keep watching these YouTube of people in Greece and it makes me RELALY want to go over there and try it out. I stared a pro/con list but I am still not sure what exactly to do.

This month I am spending so much money
1) $16,000 on new washer/dryers for the apartments
2) $12,000 on structural repairs for one building
3) $7,000 remodeling an apartment cause we kicked out this hoarder and it was just so fucking disgusting.
4) $6,000 on stuff for the boat.

I need to stop bleeding money! I’m getting concerned for when I stop getting money from VFF about if I’ll be able to afford life!

I wish that I had one more guest who can come visit… help me with the trek from GT back to Marsh Harbor. THat’ll be about 2-3 weeks alone and not sure how I feel about all that.

Yesterday kinda sucked… We moved only 5 miles so I left the dinghy down and towed it behind. We got to the anchorage and I was backing down on the anchor. All of a sudden I heard a BAM and the engine shut down. The tow line got caught on the prop.

It took me 3 hours under water to cut the damn thing free… Now I’m all worried that something is more broken, people on line have said that means my seals are probably fucked. Which means water in the oil.. I’m not sure how often that means I can run my engine, etc.. But I’ll have to find a haul out facility to get that fixed.

I called a broker yesterday to see about selling the boat. Just so I can get an idea of what I could get for it financially. I have about $630k into it…

I’m making my last trip south and honestly, I just want to go north NOW.

Going to be leaving Nassau for the last time tomorrow…. It’s a little sad but I’m also really looking forward to it. My trip is starting to come to a close, doing these last things, contacting marinas back in the USA. Figuring out were I’m going to live.

It’s all still so confusing and happy/sad at the same time. I’m so stressed about what to do once I’m back in the states. I’ll be kinda living at my parents house for a while, which seems weird at 43. I almost want to just get a short term AirBNB while I’m there just so I don’t have to live with them. But then I also want to live there to not spend money.

I need to plan a trip back to CA for medical stuff. Where will I stay there too?

Speaking of Medical stuff, I think I mentioned before that I had food poisoning a month or so ago.. I’ve also had terrible diarrhea for years now. And it just seems to be getting worse while here. It was manageable before, once a day. Now it’s multiple times per day and it’s really pissing me off. I tried to hookup with this guy the other day. I douched for hours, finally came out clean. Then by the time he got here, he stuck it in a few inches, pulled out and it was dirty again! WTF. My doctor for the past year has basically just been saying to take 2-4 Immodium AD’s per day. And that’s just dumb/annoying. Plus I take two per day right now and NOTHING IS BETTER. I just want it to go away so that I can have sex and not have to spend HOURS prepping.

I watch these youtube’s still…

And ya know THIS is the life I wanted in this experience. Going around cute villages, having a partner to do it with, etc etc. I am just so torn between trying to do it again next season or just give up. I keep thinking to myself, MAYBE if I get to the Med it’ll be better… But then I dunno. Will it?!

I’m also so worried about Trump and what’s going on in America. Like how will this impact my apartments and my income!

I just wish that I could figure shit out what I wanna do. Where I wanna go. Hut and Sean are in Thailand and it’s seeming like such a good idea to just move there. lol

The past week Frank and his BF have been here and it’s been nice having them. I’ve def put on weight with all the food frank has been cooking.

We’re on the trek back to Nassau for the last time to drop them off at the airport on Saturday. It’s been a fun trip but I’m always worried that people are bored sometimes with being out here. I know the BF says he’s more of a city guy and he’s looking forward to getting back to nassau for a day to explore the city there.

They remind me a lot of me and Charles. The first day they got here we were out on a hike and I just asked frank to take a nude pic of me… Apparently the bf got SUPER pissed off about that and he ended up spending the rest of the day locked in hi cabin. Refusing to talk to Frank.

They are lovey’ dovey’. But then also Frank does everything for the BF. Cooks, dishes, etc. Just like me and Charles. Frank also apparently paid for this whole trip, just like me and Charles.

Last night, the BF asked me if I was on some horoscope app. Frank then got all pissy cause the BF asked me if I was on it, but not asked him? He texted me later explaining that it’s a long story.

I’m still on the fence about what to do with this boat… Now that I see the end in sight, I’m getting excited for what’s next, Eastern Caribbean, Greece, etc. But then I also have these days where I’m just like. Fuck this I wanna sell the damn boat.

So I still don’t know what to do about the whole situation.

Plus with all my friends talking about moving over seas and the continued disaster that Is trump…. Ugh just so much uncertantity.

I still long for those days of the 90’s and early 2000’s when we had so much to look forward too. We had our problems as a country but the government worked together. I watched this thing last night about Regean/Bush debate and fuck, I would have voted for them back in the day!

We also watched about 15 minutes of Fox News last night, what a bunch of HATE and crazy. These people are so bonkers and I cannot believe this is where 50% of America gets its news.

A lot of my friends are actively looking to leave the USA. What’s going on here is so scary and I can’t even keep up every day with all the insane shit that’s going on. From the CDC removing all references to HIV medications, HHS removing “T” from LGBT, FBI moving all their “values”, Musk gaining access to the $6 trillion payment systems, the list goes on and on and I’m sure there’s a ton of stuff that’s happening we don’t even know about!

I wish that I could leave the USA as well, well technically I have, but in a more permanent method. But again it’s one of those things that, DO I WANT TO DO THAT ALONE? I have 3 couple friends all seriously taking actions to move out of the country.

What are we to do? It’s scary that this is the path we’re walking down as a country. That people are out there SUPPORTING this shit. That GAY people support this shit?!

Just feeling so helpless about what’s going on right now in the country. And pissed that the democratic leadership isn’t doing ANYTHING about it. Almost every day there’s some news story “Trump did X, which is illegal”. But because of the Supreme Court ruling, apparently nothing the president does is actually ILLEGAL… Fuck this time line we’re in.