I’m sitting here, tears streaming down my face. Thinking about him. 2 years ago today was when we agreed to give it another try. Two years ago he said “Im just so excited I have you back and I don’t ever want to let you go again!!”.
And he let me go. He couldn’t open up. He said the other night he wanted me to get to know him to unravel him to open him up. But he resisted that. He resisted letting me in. He didn’t LET me get to know him.
Why am I the one hurting so much. Why am I the one who’s put all this effort in and he just moves on so easily.
Am I just fixing it just to break it?
Am I just hanging on, just so we can drown?
Like the love we thought we found, no
We’re hoping that we don’t just hit the ground
I’ve been pulling you close, but pushing me further
I’ve been holding it back, that I see you different
Sick of me remindin’ you to love me like you say you do
And I’ve been hurting myself to keep you from leaving
I’ve been wonderin’ whether we’ll last the season
Wish we could’ve made this work
But now I know that I need more
I need more
I need more
I need more
Afraid that I’ll lose you in the crowd
I wish that I was a priority
Then you walked out on me with a straight look on your face
And said you’ve had enough
singer songwriter, entrepeneur