WAIT!!! FUCK. I wrote a post while I was in the Galapagos and it appears it Never posted! 🙁 🙁 🙁
So the Galapagos trip was amazing. I was def ready to come home though by the end of it. Having Charles hanging out with Eric so much was super frustrating and caused some problems between us during that time but I think we talked it through and worked it out.
I really tried my best to not show my insecurity with him and when he would tell me that he was going to go hang out with him I would usually just say “ok, have fun”. There a few nights where we had “talks” about things and at one point he texted me saying that he just can’t seem to make me happy.
I got back and we had a good couple days but there was one night where we were out at dinner and he just kept texting his friend “James”. This really frustrated me. I know Jay & James are a couple, they are having issues with each other. I had just found out that apparently Charles met James via Grindr while he was in his last relationship (they were open). So all this plus the fact that I had just got back from my trip and instead of sitting there talking to me asking me questions he was busy texting James really pissed me off.
I guess they are going to go have breakfast on Thursday to discuss the problem that Jay and James are having. I get that he has to have his own friends, but why does it all have to be guys he met on grindr.
In good news though, I met his family. That was fun but at the same time, I felt like I was being compared to Eric. There were a couple mentions of his name and his brother even openly said he would prefer Eric to be there over me. So that was frustrating AF.
I dunno what I feel any more, TBH. Like at some points I sort of just wonder what we even have in common. What do we really have that attracts us together other than that he’s hot AF?
I’m just so insecure about it all the time, but he tells me he’s not going anywhere. That he cares about me. etc. I guess I just have to trust him.