Suresh,
The last six months have been great getting to know you. I’ve enjoyed our times and adventures together. I know you see me as just a friend, but I care about you way more than that. I don’t want to lose you again like we did for that month. You’re one of the sweetest and most genuine people I’ve met in a long time and that’s the type of person I want a lasting connection with. Even if it’s just as friends.
I want us to grow closer as friends over the next 9 months while you’re gone and I hope we can see each other from time to time. I know it’s going to very difficult for me and I apologize if I’ve hurt you. Please just be open and honest with me, that’s all I ask.
I want you to talk to me about your life, don’t hide things. Tell me about your good and bad dates, tell me about your days at work and what adventures you’re going on. I know you’re on grindr and going to be meetings guys in Iowa. I’ve been trying to show you lately that I want to hear about those things by opening the door and telling you about my dates, and probably in bad taste joking about grindr hookups. It’s going to be very difficult for me at first, but in the long run it will make us stronger as friends. I want to be closer to you emotionally, even if we are ever just friends.
I value you as a friend, way more then a friend, and someone I care deeply about, but I feel like you just want my attention and don’t want to give anything back. For example. If you can be on grindr chatting with random guys, you can reply to a friend who’s trying to talk to you and have a connection with you. I hope you can see that and value me back as well.
Call me or text me anytime. If you want to do a trip together or for me to visit you in Iowa, just ask me. I’m looking forward to us becoming closer as friends.
With Love,
Chris