Wow, so last night was great, and yet now I’m so depressed.
I’ve been so excited for Blake to come for the last week! I had it all planned out, have dinner about ready, have a nice fire going and candles lit. I had presents for him.
He told me he’d be there between 6 and 6:30, yet at 5:30 there was a knock on my door. So I go and answer it and there he is! I was so happy. 🙂
He came in and we talked for a while, then I cooked dinner and we ate. Then we watched “But I’m a Cheerleader”… Well, we didn’t really watch it too much. We spent most of it cuddling and kissing. It was so amazing to hold him and kiss him again! He’s so beautiful!
After the movie he complained about the couch being too small, so we moved into the bedroom and spent the rest of the night in there kissing and cuddling and talking. It was just so great to have someone I care about around again.
I really wish I could see him every weekend, or every day! Or something more then just the once a month we’ve been getting for the alst two months!
I also got him to tell me about this big secret he has… Which honestly, I was expecting more! He just said that he wished he could see me more. Him and Jimmy both made it up to be so much bigger.. I had a feeling he was holding back what it really was. lol.. But At least he did admit that he did miss me… I really miss him a lot.
He had to leave at 9:00 which was sad… I walked him out to his car and I was a little annoyed by the fact that he was so scared to even hug infront of anyone! I’ll change that! lol.
Anyways, we hugged one last time, and I wanted to give him a kiss but since he was so scared about hugging I didn’t think it was right… I also wanted to tell him how much I care about him, but I chickened out at the last minute.
And then I got back to my apartment and instantly remembered that I had presents for him and forgot to give them to him!
I already really miss him and am looking forward to the next time we can hang out… whenever that may be. 🙁
One last thing though is that I wish he’d be more open with me about how he’s feeling, what he’s doing and all that stuff…