So it’s been a really long time since I’ve written a private entry. I shoud have done a lot more of them over the last 4 months of my relationship with JonJon. There’s a lot that this journal missed.
But alas, that part of my life is now over. We’ll continue to be friends.
I felt so bad about doing it to him. I really do love him, and he’s a great person. I cried thinking about having to break up with him. I cried while I was going it, and I cried after… I’m even getting teary writing this. I really didn’t think it’d be this hard.
He seems to be taking it pretty well though. So that’s good. I hope that he doesn’t hate me. I hope that we can continue to be friends. I really do.
I just feel really bad about doing it to him. Hopefully he will find someone better then me, someone who won’t try and force him to stop smoking, and someone who can talk to him about the things he really likes.
Anyways, just wanted to update my life about that.