Going to be leaving Nassau for the last time tomorrow…. It’s a little sad but I’m also really looking forward to it. My trip is starting to come to a close, doing these last things, contacting marinas back in the USA. Figuring out were I’m going to live.
It’s all still so confusing and happy/sad at the same time. I’m so stressed about what to do once I’m back in the states. I’ll be kinda living at my parents house for a while, which seems weird at 43. I almost want to just get a short term AirBNB while I’m there just so I don’t have to live with them. But then I also want to live there to not spend money.
I need to plan a trip back to CA for medical stuff. Where will I stay there too?
Speaking of Medical stuff, I think I mentioned before that I had food poisoning a month or so ago.. I’ve also had terrible diarrhea for years now. And it just seems to be getting worse while here. It was manageable before, once a day. Now it’s multiple times per day and it’s really pissing me off. I tried to hookup with this guy the other day. I douched for hours, finally came out clean. Then by the time he got here, he stuck it in a few inches, pulled out and it was dirty again! WTF. My doctor for the past year has basically just been saying to take 2-4 Immodium AD’s per day. And that’s just dumb/annoying. Plus I take two per day right now and NOTHING IS BETTER. I just want it to go away so that I can have sex and not have to spend HOURS prepping.
I watch these youtube’s still…
And ya know THIS is the life I wanted in this experience. Going around cute villages, having a partner to do it with, etc etc. I am just so torn between trying to do it again next season or just give up. I keep thinking to myself, MAYBE if I get to the Med it’ll be better… But then I dunno. Will it?!
I’m also so worried about Trump and what’s going on in America. Like how will this impact my apartments and my income!
I just wish that I could figure shit out what I wanna do. Where I wanna go. Hut and Sean are in Thailand and it’s seeming like such a good idea to just move there. lol