I am just feeling like maybe I expect too fucking much out of people/the world. It’s getting frustrating AF. I want to go home. I just live a normal life. Find a husband. I dunno.
Things here in Antigua have been fine but also annoying AF. I just feel like I am constantly getting shafted out of life and experiences.
1) Phil, Andrew and I went to a spa for a massage. We all booked the same massage treatment. THEY were offered a shower before and after their massage. _I_ was not. The massage was $100USD.
2) After said massage we went up to the pool to spend the day there. It was a $90USD entry fee which included one drink, one main and (apparently) one bottle of water. So I paid the $90USD and then asked for a TOWEL. The woman gave me an eye roll and said “You didn’t bring one”. BITCH. I am paying $90 FUCKING USD for a day pass to your fucking pool. It should include a god damn towel… I was so annoyed I ate my lunch and then left. I def did not get to enjoy my $90USD. After I left, apparently they offered Andrew and Phil a bottle of water as part of the $90…. Which I did not get.
3) I wanted to be wild and crazy. I spent $30USD on a manicure and nail painting. It’s been less than 24hrs and half the nail polish is already gone.
4) I sent the organizer of the Salty Dawg rally a very detailed email about things that I thought could improve the experience for people. Including suggestions like “less drinking events”, “daily zoom calls with the fleet”, and feedback on the weather router (who EVERYONE agrees was terrible). I got back a very condescending email basically saying that what I was asking was “way too much” for the fees that we pay. WTF bitch you guys spent GOD KNOWS how much money on drinking and beer and other such events.
5) And this is the biggest fucking shaft so far of this trip…. I hired a guy who had been recommended to me by a committee member of the salty dawg rally. He came to my boat, looked over the project said it would take one day. I agreed. His guy showed up around 10am and left by 4:30 or 5pm. There was only EVER ONE PERSON on my boat at any time. YES two different people did work. But only ONE was here at any point. He charged me for 16 HOURS OF WORK. $2,100USD. I tried to talk to him about it and he was just a fucking bitch and said “prove it”. I emailed the committee member who suggested him and his reply was “you’re in their country we have to be nice to them”. FUCK THAT SHIT. This guy is fucking RIPPING ME OFF. The committee member also suggested I just drop it or the worker guy can report me to customs and “cause you an issue the you go to checkout”.
Just so fucking tired of this crap. I just want to go back home. To a country where I know how shit works, where people can and are held semi-accountable.
In other news, I’ve been having nearly daily dreams about Charles which is very annoying.
Lalo and I, i dunno what’s going on here… He says I love you, I say I love you. He’s great to chat with and tons of fun but I just don’t know. He’s 20 years younger than me… how can that possibly work… Ugh.