Hahah. wicked 😛
Anyway, I re-downloaded “dating” apps. Hinge mostly is what I’m trying to use now. Within a few days, I matched with 40 people. All of them seem to be very well off, like nice jobs, etc. Cute. But honestly I just don’t have the energy to do the whole “dating” BS.
Asking about your life, following up on shit. It’s just annoying now. Half the guys I’ve already rejected for one thing or another. The other half I’ve forgotten most of what they’ve already told me.
This one guy seems really good, he and I have done a few FaceTimes but he just makes it feel so transactional. IE he will text a few short things in the morning then nothing the rest of the day. At the end of the FaceTime he will be like “So what did you find most interesting about today’s chat” or some other therapist like question. It’s just weird.
I dunno. I just don’t enjoy this right now still. I just don’t enjoy dating.
Even with 19 year old. Like I know I don’t want to date him. But I struggle with when and how to reply to him sometimes. IE the other day he sent me this cute video telling me all about his day. WTF do I say/do in reply? He’s also started texting me good night messages….
Maybe it’ll chance once I get to Baltimore and I feel more stable.
But then when I tell people I am on a boat and only here for the summer, that’s probably a turn off for them. Right?
Ugh….