Single again… Kellie came to visit me in Annapolis and there were just a lot of little issues that I couldn’t deal with any more. Basically since Greece things have been kinda on an edge. I care about him but there was just too much animosity from all the arguing and other little things. I don’t really want to say much but I’m sad it’s over and based on how I feel overall, it was def the right decision for me. I wish him the best. I wish things had been different. But it just wasn’t the right time.
Boat life has been a lot of fucking work. Boat vendors are really really frustrating to me. No one can show up on time, no one can do the work they promise on time. Nothing happens quickly at all. IE I ordered a washer/dryer 8 weeks ago. They shipped me a fucking DISHWASHER. Now they have the washer/dryer but saying they cannot get to installation until next week. WTF. So annoying.
Astra is getting better at boat living. But she still hates when we start the engines. Will be really interesting to see what happens when we start to sail and get into some waves!
I question if this was the right thing to do every day, tbh. I am feeling more isolated already. I feel that there are people when I was in SF that I used to talk to every day that are now barely replying to me.
Charles sent me some songs the other day. They still brought tears to my eyes even though we’ve both prob played them 100’s of times over the course of our relationship and in the year since. What does it mean that a year later, he still makes me cry sometimes.