HI Again.

Well, surprise surprise, Charles is back!

A couple weeks ago he started messaging me on instagram, soon it was more and more. Then he messaged me over thanksgiving saying he was doing a project on HIV at school. I asked him “why HIV” and he said that I had inspired him. He said he wanted to ask me some questions, etc. Then Thanksgiving night he messaged me on instagram wanting to video chat. I was sleeping and when I replied he said he wanted to “show” me something.

He invited me to go to tennis on Tuesday and honestly I thought it would be super awkward. But it was a lot of fun and we chatted the whole time. He got red rubber bands on his braces in honor of World AIDS day, that was super cute. Went to dinner and finally had a the serious talk we needed. He apparently broke up with Eric and wanted me back. He said things from the start with Eric weren’t all that great.

We went back to his house and talked some more but didn’t make any definite decisions.

I got home that night and derik screamed at me for even meeting up with him. He was screaming shit like “these fucking faggots”; “this fag” blah blah blah.

Thursday we hung out during the day. Had another good time, we did mani&pedi and then went to lunch then back to his place to talk more. I agreed to give it another shot but I have to protect myself and be more careful. I cannot have him breaking my heart again. We talked about what our goals are for the next 5 years and what he wants out of a relationship. We seem to be pretty aligned on that.

We’ve of Course been back to chatting the same as before, sending kissy faces, etc. Yesterday I went to RENT with Derik and ShooFu and while there Charles texted me this: “Im just so excited I have you back and I don’t ever want to let you go again!!”

I will just have to see what happens here. Honestly, I PUSHED him to deal with Eric, I knew back then that things couldn’t be healthy between us with the cloud of Eric’s love over us. I never thought he would GO the route he choose to go and yeah it fucking hurt and sucked. But I’m willing to give him a third chance. Third time’s a charm?

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