I was already having a bad day, and we had already fought once. We had gotten snappy with each other before, and said some mean things.. but I NEVER… NEVER thought he would say it to me.
Chris: I ask you what’s wrong, you get mad, I tell you I can’t talk You get mad.
(18:51:40) Andrew: goodbye
(18:51:41) Chris: Goodbye
(18:51:44) Chris: fuck you.
I just started crying in my room. how can you say something like that so someone that you are supposed to love? I can’t even believe it. And then he convienently posted it on his journal so I could read it again and cry again.
And of course his new away message “You fuck off. I was just trying to find out what was wrong with you.” Thanks. Thanks a lot.
A huge line was crossed today the instant he said that. It might sound stupid, but this isn’t something I’m just going to forget about.
He didn’t even call to say he was sorry. I don’t even think he is.
I got another message from him saying that I could call him when I was ready. Well, I’m not going to. You tell me to fuck off and I’m supposed to call you? And do what? Apologize? You are the one who said the worst thing you could’ve possibly said.
I don’t know what to do. For now, I’ll just keep contemplating it, in shock, wonder how my boyfriend could possibly say something like that to me, and cry.
If this sounds dramatic, sorry. Clearly, I’m in a shitty shitty shitty mood.