It’s been a while

It’s been a long while since I’ve blogged. I’ve been busy and yet not doing anything much at all. It’s tough after so long to get back into this.

Things with Calvin and I have been great. I’ve been visiting him every month and he spent the whole summer here. But at the same time, things have not been so great. After a year of dating (tomorrow) he still doesn’t trust me at all to do anything. It puts a huge amount of stress on our relationship and I’ve thought about breaking up a few times already with him. Not a good sign.

I met this guy Hut who’s fun to hang out with, he loves climbing, hiking, etc. So I’ve been spending a lot of time with him. Calvin is of course very jealous and it’s been causing lots of problems. Every time I want to hang out with him we have to have a 30+ minute “talk” about his problems and concerns with me hanging out with Hut. It’s very annoying.

I admit I was like that for a while with him hanging out with this “Francious” guy. But I quickly got over it and now whenever he tells me they are going to hang out I just say “Ok baby, hope you have fun”. And I don’t drag it out the way Calvin does.

Calvin also is very snoopy. A while back I was at his house and he snooped through my txt messages on my phone. The next time I saw him I locked my phone with a much longer password to prevent this. But it still didn’t stop him from snooping. We were sitting in bed one night and I got up to pee. He snooped through my facebook messages while I was gone. And then lied to me when I confronted him about it.

IF anything, who is the one who cannot be trusted? He’s the one snooping and lying to me. He’s the one who is going out to bars without telling me about it. I haven’t done any of that. The worst I have done is to “flirt” with other guys via txt/facebook. Yes, I admit, not the smartest or best thing to do. But also not something that should “break all trust” we have built.

He has serious issues with trusting me.

I’m going to visit him in 2 weeks for american Thanksgiving. Then he and his whole family is coming here for Christmas. I hope we can make it that long.

Enough about him.

Other things that have been up, I’ve been to a bathhouse now. Three times. All with calvin. It was very interesting each time. I sort of really enjoy it and really hate it at the same time. THe last time was the best. We were in the hot tub and there were these two really hot guys having sex next to us.

I went to china. Spent almost a whole month there. Best trip experience of my life. I had so much fun. So much happened there that it’s almost impossible to recount to late after it happened, but we visited 7 cities in 21 days.

Work has been exciting and yet boring all at the same time. I completed that project, got my bonus. But since then it’s been maint and nothing new has really happened. I honestly spend 90% of my time answering the same questions over and over again. I could sit at home and do nothing for most of the day and still be ahead on all my work. Carl has basically said they want to hire me sometime in the next 6 months. We shall see if that comes to fruition. I would love to have a new job like that but at the same time, that company seems so disorganized and out of it that I’m not sure I could deal with it.

Our CEO died and our sales manager is the new boss around here. So far nothing major has changed but will be interesting to see what happens. I don’t think he has the same vision that our CEO had so I fear the company will become stagnant. There have been a lot of changes internally regarding structure, but nothing much else has changed.

I’m going to try and start updating more often again…

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