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10 Year Plan

Last night I was thinking a lot about my future and what I am going to do over the next 10 years… I can’t believe that in 10 years I’ll be NEARLY 50!

Starting in Jan 2020, I’ve begun already paying down ALL my debt that I have. All in on 1/1/20 I had $951,000 in debts. So far this year I’ve paid off $80,000 of that. I’ve also refinanced about $200,000 of that into lower interest and working on refinancing another $650,000 of that into lower interest.

My goal is that within about 12 years total to have that fully paid off, but by the 10 year mark I should have it down to almost nothing.

Over the next 10 years, I want to buy at least 2-3 more houses and have a passive income of about $100,000/year. I really hope that we hav UNIVERSAL HEALTHCARE by then!

In the next 1-2 years I will start taking sailing classes and learn how to sail and then I’ll start charting boats for vacations. Then in 10 years, I’ll quit my job and sail around enjoying life!

I dunno if I’ll actually end up doing this. Part of it is finding someone to go do this with in the 10 years! You can’t said alone!

I need to start selling assets and I would love to either get a second roommate or just rent this house in SF out and use that money to be paying down the debt there.

I REALLY need to unload this fucking Torino.

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4 years…

Wow, I can’t believe it’s been 4 years already. It still hurts like it was just a week ago. I know he’s moved on, so why can’t I.

Honestly not much going on, we’re all still in lock down. Our president is melting down every day and it an absolute idiot. Work is fine and I actually am enjoying WFH a lot. I just wish the roommate were gone during the day!

Been doing tons of projects around the house which is nice to get that list checked off.

Really nothing to write about

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I’m Sorry

A while back, I posted about how one of my ex’s wanted me to apologize for the way I treated him 20 years ago, well I don’t want to apologize to him but I do to someone else.

I’m sorry that I didn’t appreciate you the way you should have been. I’m sorry about that time I said you were a “lost puppy” cause you were so happy to see me. I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you how much I loved it when you left me fresh baked chocolate croissants before you left for work. I’m sorry I got mad at you for cooking an entire box of pasta for just the two of us.

I’m sorry the last time we saw each other, I didn’t just tell you how much I missed you.

I’m sorry… I wish I could go back and change all of that and make it better.

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Man this has been such a meessssss. Markets are crashing, everyone is working from home. I’ve lost $93,000 in the past two weeks alone on the markets.

Trump and the GOP is of course not handling this. I cannot believe that he went out tried to buy the vaccine from Germany. This guy is a mess and I cannot believe anyone supports him or ANYONE in the GOP at this point. I read these forums that are pretty conservative and the shit these idiots spew is just mind boggling.

My parents were supposed to go on a cruise this week and my mom is actually MAD that they cancelled it. WTF.

In other news, my dating life suck. I’ve been on three dates in the past week and all of them have sucked. The first guy was super AWK, second guy was super fem and drank four glasses of wine in one quick lunch meeting the third guy was nice but WAY too aggressive for me.

Anyway.. Lots to say but don’t really feel like it. Same old shit. Can’t move on from past stuff…

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Let’s drag up something from 20 years ago…

Wow, this morning I received a shocking message via instagram. Someone I dated nearly TWENTY YEARS AGO messaged me and said that I need to apologize for the way that I treated him while we were dating. Specifically one instance where he said I was overly aggressive towards him and ever since then any time someone has yelled at him he breaks down crying.

Seriously, wtf. The incident happened during a fight in which he was ALSO being aggressive. Get over yourself. If you’re letting one fucking thing like that ruin or impact your life for 20 years, it’s not my fault. Learn and move on from it. I WILL ADMIT that my behavior at the time was not right and I have learned from it. That’s what everyone does. We were both young and dumb back then and we grow and change. That’s how life happens.

If he really wants to bring that shit up, then let’s talk about how I upended my life for him, moving half way across the country only for him to dump me LITERALLY DAYS LATER. How about how that has impacted me? But whatever, we make mistakes and move on.

IN OTHER NEWS. Not a lot going on. I’ve been focusing hard AF on paying down all my debts. Paid nearly $45,000 in the past two months and should be debt free by the end of March. Not including my houses, of course.

I’ve still been hanging out with Derik a lot and we’ve been going to OTF nearly every day. I’m down 8lbs so far this month, I need to really start getting to the gym gym and doing weights more so I can grow my pecs.

And that’s really all I have to say. I’m out.