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COVID Update

Well, we’re still locked down in COVID and it’s starting to really get to me. At first I actually enjoyed it, I had tons of time to do projects around the house, I didn’t have pressure to meet people. I could work when I wanted to work and get stuff done as I felt. But now it’s just getting annoying. I want to go out and not feel “bad” about it. Also the roommate is REALLY driving me insane. He just doesn’t get it at all. The whole time he’s been going to work, going out to eat, etc etc etc. This weekend I ran up to OR to trade trailers with someone, so apparently he felt that was business as usual and he had people over to the house and then yesterday him and his sister were off doing god knows what.

On top of that he’s becoming a real pig. I came home and there were stains from the pizza box all over the counter, food crumbs everywhere. I’m really really close to just kicking him out.

In other news, not a lot going on at work I am doing some slow progress on my project but I’m not hopeful much will come from it. I’ve been chatting a lot with Chris from Gourmet and I miss that place but I also remember how annoying some of the shit there is. He is basically acting as a plant manager instead of IT manager this year.

I had a dream about Calvin last night that we were living together. :'( We’ve been chatting a lot more lately during this Covid crap. Mostly just how stupid America/Trump are and how we’re all going to die. He also told me to start playing FF XIV which I’ve been doing and is fun but I also have no idea what’s going on in the game. Like I have TONs of “items” but no idea what to do with them all.

My 10 year plan is coming along but I’ve also been sort of freaking out that maybe I am not doing enough. I have this friend in SF that is constantly buying houses and more houses and looking at houses and I feel that I don’t have enough income to be able to manage that. I found one place that I really want to buy but I just don’t have enough cash. This friend tells me he wnats to go 50/50 on a couple places but I don’t know if I know him WELL enough to trust doing that yet. So I’ve been a bit freaked out about that.

My trailer business is gonna suck this year.

Meh, not much else to talk about. I’m feeling a bit down/depressed but nothing too bad yet. I just really need to get out and about. I want to travel somewhere and go do stuff.

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10 Year Plan

Last night I was thinking a lot about my future and what I am going to do over the next 10 years… I can’t believe that in 10 years I’ll be NEARLY 50!

Starting in Jan 2020, I’ve begun already paying down ALL my debt that I have. All in on 1/1/20 I had $951,000 in debts. So far this year I’ve paid off $80,000 of that. I’ve also refinanced about $200,000 of that into lower interest and working on refinancing another $650,000 of that into lower interest.

My goal is that within about 12 years total to have that fully paid off, but by the 10 year mark I should have it down to almost nothing.

Over the next 10 years, I want to buy at least 2-3 more houses and have a passive income of about $100,000/year. I really hope that we hav UNIVERSAL HEALTHCARE by then!

In the next 1-2 years I will start taking sailing classes and learn how to sail and then I’ll start charting boats for vacations. Then in 10 years, I’ll quit my job and sail around enjoying life!

I dunno if I’ll actually end up doing this. Part of it is finding someone to go do this with in the 10 years! You can’t said alone!

I need to start selling assets and I would love to either get a second roommate or just rent this house in SF out and use that money to be paying down the debt there.

I REALLY need to unload this fucking Torino.

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4 years…

Wow, I can’t believe it’s been 4 years already. It still hurts like it was just a week ago. I know he’s moved on, so why can’t I.

Honestly not much going on, we’re all still in lock down. Our president is melting down every day and it an absolute idiot. Work is fine and I actually am enjoying WFH a lot. I just wish the roommate were gone during the day!

Been doing tons of projects around the house which is nice to get that list checked off.

Really nothing to write about

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I’m Sorry

A while back, I posted about how one of my ex’s wanted me to apologize for the way I treated him 20 years ago, well I don’t want to apologize to him but I do to someone else.

I’m sorry that I didn’t appreciate you the way you should have been. I’m sorry about that time I said you were a “lost puppy” cause you were so happy to see me. I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you how much I loved it when you left me fresh baked chocolate croissants before you left for work. I’m sorry I got mad at you for cooking an entire box of pasta for just the two of us.

I’m sorry the last time we saw each other, I didn’t just tell you how much I missed you.

I’m sorry… I wish I could go back and change all of that and make it better.

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Man this has been such a meessssss. Markets are crashing, everyone is working from home. I’ve lost $93,000 in the past two weeks alone on the markets.

Trump and the GOP is of course not handling this. I cannot believe that he went out tried to buy the vaccine from Germany. This guy is a mess and I cannot believe anyone supports him or ANYONE in the GOP at this point. I read these forums that are pretty conservative and the shit these idiots spew is just mind boggling.

My parents were supposed to go on a cruise this week and my mom is actually MAD that they cancelled it. WTF.

In other news, my dating life suck. I’ve been on three dates in the past week and all of them have sucked. The first guy was super AWK, second guy was super fem and drank four glasses of wine in one quick lunch meeting the third guy was nice but WAY too aggressive for me.

Anyway.. Lots to say but don’t really feel like it. Same old shit. Can’t move on from past stuff…