Confusion

BlackC 2004: Shouldn’t you have an away message up?
Auto response from BlackC 2004: I’m Idle

BlackC 2004: I’m sorry about everything. I hope that you have a great night watching Gilmore Girls.
BlackC 2004: You’ll have to tell me exactly what happened since I had to miss it.
BlackC 2004: … I miss you too. ::hugs:: Don’t feel bad, do what you want.
BlackC 2004 signed off at 9:02:22 PM.

What the fuck am I supposed to do?
1. I love Chris and care for him very very much.
2. I want to date someone else before I commit to him.
3. I do not want my dating someone else to affect his thoughts about me. I want him to still care about me, b/c I will still care about him.
4. I wish this wasn’t so fucking hard b/c I don’t know what to do.
I want to date someone else, but that will hurt Chris and I don’t want to hurt him but I want to date someone else, which hurts him, which is osmething I don’t want to do. And thus, the cycle continues.
I just want to be sure….

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